Recent content by ESK

Sysyphus. Yes. It's a drag. But I am a depressed person (aat least during these MN winters). There is not enough time...

Sorry, I missed it. Just didn't fee like meeting with him today.

A lot of the stuff I mentioned above. The idea of Hell though seems to be the biggest thing with me right now. I was raised in an Assemblies of God/Evangelical Christian home (though my mother's bipolar illness and my father's upbringing by alcoholic parents hurt his ability to effectively...

I get to meetings but the agnosticism/atheistic nature (and cult) of it hasn't always sat well with me. And to top it off at this time in my life I am questioning the existence of God. I'm a walking kind of spiritual/eemotional mess in some ways right now.

I already have been dealing with it. ssober for the longest time my adult life on almost 11 months now.

Hell. In short, hell. A lot of stuff has hit me lately. Ex is pregnant with someone I don't approve of Mothers suicide. Social anxiety. Lack of stature. Alcoholism. Lack of friends. A lot of that stuff I can deal with, but there are so many people walking around bound for - what I was...

I feel like my world is crashing around me, and I'm questioning my belief in God. I am struggling.

I've wondered about this and struggled with the question for some time. I found my mom hanging two years ago, and she was a devout christian, but was bipolar and went off her meds. I've also thought about ending my life, even before my mother's death. I think Christ would accept us, but maybe not.

RFK was assassinated with a .22 (Sirhan Sirhan) and the Virginia Tech shooter who killed 32 used two handguns, and one of them was a .22. As I said, I wouldn't be averse to having one for defense, but if you're in a gun fight with someone with a .9mm or .45 that's a game changer. But if you...

Actually it was Isiah 41: 10. Bible Gateway passage: Isaiah 41:10 - New International Version

Isaiah 10 12 or 14 or some such. Can't remember it exactly. Lol

I thought in Revalations. it talked about in the last days in our desperation we would beg to be defeated, or some such.

...talks about in the last days, the people/masses will beg the government to disarm them? (To take their right to self defense away from them, willingly?)

The sad thing about it all is that in the vicinity I'm in (large Metro) I'm certain there are a dozen females within a 10-15 mile radius with me that would be perfect for me and vice versa...yet we might as well be half a world away. Even sadder, if I don't find someone soon I am certain I am...

"A .22 on your person is better than a .45 at home..." Is the saying. It's not ideal for home defense - heck, even a .38 isn't necessarily ideal for home defense as there was an example of a woman with a .38 revolver who hit her assailant like 5 times in relatively close range and he still...