Recent content by Alynn

Would someone know if they had a reprobate mind or would they'd be too far gone to even realize they were in that state?

Okay, So I'm back at Repentance. Again. I'm trying to yet figure this out. Again. I've been so mad and hurt, I tried to give up. many times. but It seems that something inside me tells me that I'm wrong I want to read the word but I don't. I want to change but I don't. typing this now I now see...

I wish God never created me. I wish I was never born or thought of. I wish I didn't exist. I wish I didnt know any of the people in my life. It's not enough for me to disappear or run away. No I never should of happened because if I had the choice I would of have said no. If I didn't have the...

I think I do have anxiety, it quiet took me longer to realize that I did. In the beginning of 2019 I thought that I had committed the unforgivable sin which paralyzed me with so much fear. I lost weight. I think I was depressed during that time. Nothing but negativity. So I guess it was...

So I read some forums about people who thought they had grieved the Holy Spirit. And im just seeing if anyone else has gone through this. I dont have a yearning. That presence in my heart is not there anymore. It's like I Know that I know that the Holy Spirit left me. I'm not sure if hell come...

Is it okay to know that you are loved by God and not understand how much? And if so, how do you accept that love?

No I'm not drinking, smoking, nor fornicating. But my attitude towards others, my lack of love. My stubbornness to to have my way, my selfishness. Resistance against the Holy Spirit, not sure if I'm still being convicted. I know what is right and wrong intristically but help from the Holy...

How do you know that your a reprobate or you've been given over to the strong delusion (if that's even possible of knowing)??

Well I think the first time might have been a false repentance. I didn't know that it was a change of mind. I just said a prayer and that was it. But in January I think that I was brought to true repentance but ignored it because I was so caught up in my feelings and how I messed everything...

I am just wondering how do you know if the father has called you to Jesus? And how do you know if you have true saving faith?

It is unwillingness to change or to let go. I was beating myself up about a situation that I put myself in but God was using it to help me grow. I was in the wilderness and hardened my heart now I'm really questioning if its too late

Man o Man o Man. At this point I am a fool lost at bay. wither if I hardened my heart to much or that I may have committed the unforgivable sin I do not feel the conviction of the Holy Spirit. I had asked a friend about repentance and if we would have to be FIRST convicted by the Holy Spirit...

I wouldn't go as far to say that I'm coming into his salvation. I'm still struggling and there are ALOT of things I'm trying to work on. I've never been filled with the Holy Spirit but I want to filled with him though. It really is a battle

There is hope put there. I'm still struggling. I have come to a point were I've just admitted to myself that I've been wrong about everything in my life. There has been hurt and pride and ego and anger. I dont know what MY future holds. But please dont give up. There really is hope!! Nothing...

When did you realize this?. Was it over a collective time?