Which person *am* I?

[Lady Bug]

Hi, I'm just perplexed about how I come across in real life to some people. It was the final day of one of my formation courses, and there are people who have commented how funny I am and they have laughed vivaciously at the things I said from time to time, and I made a joke in front of all the parishioners who attended that really cracked them up and the priest seemed to get a kick out of it too. They don't know the misery and emptiness I feel, the ideation, the things I feel about/against myself, yet I have the ability to make others smile and laugh and they would never know. How the heck am I supposed to know what is the real me? People at my table were really wanting to see me come to more things with them. From one extreme to the next, I am lonely, yet I may not be able to keep up with people asking me to attend things. The kind of effect that I described that I had on people tonight is not the first time, at all.

 

[mourningdove~]

Hi, I'm just perplexed about how I come across in real life to some people. It was the final day of one of my formation courses, and there are people who have commented how funny I am and they have laughed vivaciously at the things I said from time to time, and I made a joke in front of all the parishioners who attended that really cracked them up and the priest seemed to get a kick out of it too. They don't know the misery and emptiness I feel, the ideation, the things I feel about/against myself, yet I have the ability to make others smile and laugh and they would never know. How the heck am I supposed to know what is the real me? People at my table were really wanting to see me come to more things with them. From one extreme to the next, I am lonely, yet I may not be able to keep up with people asking me to attend things. The kind of effect that I described that I had on people tonight is not the first time, at all.

I'm not going to attempt to analyze your situation, but I will share that thru the years I've heard numerous successful comedians talk about this very same thing ... how they can make us all laugh ... and be the funniest person in the room ... but inside they are feeling the things that you've described. IRL, they personally deal with depression, loneliness, etc.

(Some that easily come to mind are former Saturday Nite Live cast members.)

I don't know what it all means, but I share this just to say that I don't think your experience is unique to just you.

 

[Lady Bug]

I'm not going to attempt to analyze your situation, but I will share that thru the years I've heard numerous successful comedians talk about this very same thing ... how they can make us all laugh ... and be the funniest person in the room ... but inside they are feeling the things that you've described. IRL, they personally deal with depression, loneliness, etc.

(Some that easily come to mind are former Saturday Nite Live cast members.)

I don't know what it all means, but I share this just to say that I don't think your experience is unique to just you.

Yup, the fact that I already knew this before making this post, makes me perplexed that this applies to me, too.

 

[RileyG]

Hi, I'm just perplexed about how I come across in real life to some people. It was the final day of one of my formation courses, and there are people who have commented how funny I am and they have laughed vivaciously at the things I said from time to time, and I made a joke in front of all the parishioners who attended that really cracked them up and the priest seemed to get a kick out of it too. They don't know the misery and emptiness I feel, the ideation, the things I feel about/against myself, yet I have the ability to make others smile and laugh and they would never know. How the heck am I supposed to know what is the real me? People at my table were really wanting to see me come to more things with them. From one extreme to the next, I am lonely, yet I may not be able to keep up with people asking me to attend things. The kind of effect that I described that I had on people tonight is not the first time, at all.

I do not know. Do you have a close friend or close relative you can express your feelings to? Someone who knows you REALLY well?

May God bless, protect, and preserve you! May Mother Mary wrap you in her mantle! May St. Joseph wrap you in his cloak! May Jesus keep you in his Sacred Heart!

Amen and amen!

 

[mourningdove~]

Yup, the fact that I already knew this before making this post, makes me perplexed that this applies to me, too.

I don't know that this will be of any consolation to you, but some of the greatest artists, composers, musicians, actors, comedians, etc. ... and yes, even saints! ... endured thru their own personal challenges, while God chose to work thru their lives to be a blessing to others.

I imagine you may have gone to the formation courses for what you hoped you might find there for yourself, but sounds like God did use your presence there ... and one aspect of your personality (humor) ... to also be a blessing to others!

You are in a major time of life transition right now. Former domestic responsibilities have been lifted; you now have opportunity to more freely explore life. Moving forward, trusting God, this can very much be a 'blossoming' time for you ... and especially as you continue to connect with others. Many of our gifts and talents don't really surface, until we are in connection with others.

I'm very glad to hear the course went well for you all, as it sounds like it did.

 

[FaithT]

I'm not going to attempt to analyze your situation, but I will share that thru the years I've heard numerous successful comedians talk about this very same thing ... how they can make us all laugh ... and be the funniest person in the room ... but inside they are feeling the things that you've described. IRL, they personally deal with depression, loneliness, etc.

(Some that easily come to mind are former Saturday Nite Live cast members.)

I don't know what it all means, but I share this just to say that I don't think your experience is unique to just you.

I’ve heard and read about comedians who’ve said the same thing.