For a start I never went looking for these video's I just happen to stumble on them why looking for something else
Ok, I accept that.
& what I found shocked me to the core especially the second video which tells you what Jaran is all about.
I would guess you have accepted it without question partly because having been a flat-earther for a long time it will take a while to accept something different. This is understandable and you even said this yourself and said you believed God would help you.
Another reason you may have accepted it without question is that deep down, you want to. Either that or you-know-who is whispering in your ear that globe earth people are denying God. You don't have to listen to him; in fact, you shouldn't.
I was prepared to except the globe & forget all about flat earth and just carry on
You were prepared to do much more than that:
Oh Lord forgive me for ever doubting the moon landings & Charlie Duke & thank you for showing me the truth & may your truth & guidance be with me for ever & ever. Amen
I know understand how the flat earth was a load of nonsense
but there has been to many obstacles as of late to many to ignore
You, yourself, said that you knew there would be struggles but that you would get over them with the Lord's help. Now you are saying there are too many obstacles to ignore.
Don't forget that when we struggle and find things tough it is most likely that we have disturbed/annoyed the devil. He doesn't like the truth and he hates people getting closer to God. If he is getting at you, you were doing something right.
Tell him to go back to hell and stick with God.
plus I can't get over the facts of what the Bible states.
So, to be clear:
either you didn't mean when you said, "hand on heart I believed every word", about Charles Duke's testimony, you are repenting of having written a prayer asking for forgiveness, and didn't mean that God would help you in your struggles.
Or you still believe that the experience you had when you watched his testimony was true, but the Bible contradicts it and so you believe in a flat earth again.
It can't be both.