Rough times

[Michu]

This is kinda out of character for me and I don't really want to talk about it. The last year or so has been real rough though and today I probably felt at my lowest.

I've been able to have it not effecting me too much by dwelling in the word everyday and focusing on Jesus, and I regarded it as being under a spiritual attack, which helped me to regard it as just noice. But this most current thing got to me, top of the iceberg perhaps, but it's a series of events in my life.

I felt like screaming, I was close to curse out god for not intervening but I stopped myself. Before I got saved I prayed that he checked my heart, it was something about me praying that I would be warrior for him and that it was from my heart and not the mind. It was one of a few, perhaps the only instance I've had while praying where I felt gods presence and directly doing what I asked of him. He didn't really need to do what he did, but he wanted me to know.

I would like to ask you to do a little prayer for me, and that I stay strong in my faith and honor the word that I gave, no matter the challenges ahead.

Thanks for listening, god bless!

 

[Pop D.]

Heavenly Father, we pray You will strengthen Michu's faith and provide comfort in the midst of adversity, in the Name of Jesus. Amen and Amen.

 

[Deborah1$]

This is kinda out of character for me and I don't really want to talk about it. The last year or so has been real rough though and today I probably felt at my lowest.

I've been able to have it not effecting me too much by dwelling in the word everyday and focusing on Jesus, and I regarded it as being under a spiritual attack, which helped me to regard it as just noice. But this most current thing got to me, top of the iceberg perhaps, but it's a series of events in my life.

I felt like screaming, I was close to curse out god for not intervening but I stopped myself. Before I got saved I prayed that he checked my heart, it was something about me praying that I would be warrior for him and that it was from my heart and not the mind. It was one of a few, perhaps the only instance I've had while praying where I felt gods presence and directly doing what I asked of him. He didn't really need to do what he did, but he wanted me to know.

I would like to ask you to do a little prayer for me, and that I stay strong in my faith and honor the word that I gave, no matter the challenges ahead.

Thanks for listening, god bless!

I just typed a word of encouragement for someone on another thread and I'm going to type the exact thing on here for you. (LONG AND CONDENSED STORY) About a million years ago, I was right where you are, except I was divorced and raising two small children and in debt up to my eyeballs, crying and complaining every single day. My ex-husband had run away with his co-worker and stolen my car in the bargain, so I had no transportation, but still had to pay a car note and car insurance, and was at the point of being evicted I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. God told me - yes TOLD me to take my focus off everything I didn't have and begin telling myself how great God was, and how great I was. I thought God was crazy, and I did curse God out (and He didn't strike me down dead thankfully). I was just like Job's wife. But I stepped out in obedience. I began telling myself that God was exceedingly, exceptionally, all-powerful and loved me and had promised to take care of me and He would never go back on His word because He swore by Himself that He would watch over His word to perform it. I told myself "The Spirit of the Lord goes before me and directs my footsteps;" "God makes my feet like hind's feet and sets me upon my high places"; and lastly, "I'm blessed and highly favored of God." and favor flows off me like oil and honey. I was blessed going out and blessed coming in and everything I touched was blessed because that's what His word said. I said that day and night hundreds of times a day. I shifted my focus from having nothing to be favored of God. Six months later, God flipped everything around and I've never looked back. God truly is the God of restoration. I don't know if this offers you any insight, but I hope it helps you realize you're not alone. I will certainly be praying for you. Get a book on Words and how God commands us to speak His words over our lives - He tells us that His book of the law shall not depart out of our mouths. So instead of speaking negativity over my life, I ONLY speak God's amazing blessings over my life and He has lived up to every word He said. Christ gave each and every one of His brothers and sisters the authority to command blessings over our lives. Begin to speak God's blessings over your life. He longs to help you as much as He helped me.
May God bless you and keep you.

 

[William J]

I pray that God would be with and comfort you as you go through some really tough life events. I pray that God would keep you strong in your faith, keep you serving Christ no matter what happens. In Jesus' name, amen.

 

[Michu]

I just typed a word of encouragement for someone on another thread and I'm going to type the exact thing on here for you. (LONG AND CONDENSED STORY) About a million years ago, I was right where you are, except I was divorced and raising two small children and in debt up to my eyeballs, crying and complaining every single day. My ex-husband had run away with his co-worker and stolen my car in the bargain, so I had no transportation, but still had to pay a car note and car insurance, and was at the point of being evicted I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. God told me - yes TOLD me to take my focus off everything I didn't have and begin telling myself how great God was, and how great I was. I thought God was crazy, and I did curse God out (and He didn't strike me down dead thankfully). I was just like Job's wife. But I stepped out in obedience. I began telling myself that God was exceedingly, exceptionally, all-powerful and loved me and had promised to take care of me and He would never go back on His word because He swore by Himself that He would watch over His word to perform it. I told myself "The Spirit of the Lord goes before me and directs my footsteps;" "God makes my feet like hind's feet and sets me upon my high places"; and lastly, "I'm blessed and highly favored of God." and favor flows off me like oil and honey. I was blessed going out and blessed coming in and everything I touched was blessed because that's what His word said. I said that day and night hundreds of times a day. I shifted my focus from having nothing to be favored of God. Six months later, God flipped everything around and I've never looked back. God truly is the God of restoration. I don't know if this offers you any insight, but I hope it helps you realize you're not alone. I will certainly be praying for you. Get a book on Words and how God commands us to speak His words over our lives - He tells us that His book of the law shall not depart out of our mouths. So instead of speaking negativity over my life, I ONLY speak God's amazing blessings over my life and He has lived up to every word He said. Christ gave each and every one of His brothers and sisters the authority to command blessings over our lives. Begin to speak God's blessings over your life. He longs to help you as much as He helped me.
May God bless you and keep you.

Thank you sister and thank you for sharing your story!

I'm definitely taking that to heart, I have this belief though that he molds me, that I'm under-going a process that he wants me to. Only God knows for what reason, but so far I can see how the challenges has made me a better man. It's hard though, sometimes I wish I just feeled blessed and thankful. I need to have patience.

 

[Deborah1$]

Thank you sister and thank you for sharing your story!

I'm definitely taking that to heart, I have this belief though that he molds me, that I'm under-going a process that he wants me to. Only God knows for what reason, but so far I can see how the challenges has made me a better man. It's hard though, sometimes I wish I just feeled blessed and thankful. I need to have patience.

God certainly does test us and mold us into His likeness. And molding can REALLY hurt at times. And yes, it can be hard. The way I began feeling blessed was reading all the verses where God tells us He is blessing us and repeating those verses to myself hundreds and hundreds of times. When I told myself I was broke, I stayed broke. But once I told myself I was blessed, things changed. It DID NOT happen overnight. I had to keep doing it even when I didn't feel like it, and even when I didn't see a darn thing happening. I had to prove to myself that God wasn't lying - that I really was blessed like He said. The Bible says God's word is light and truth, and it says God watches over His promises to perform them. You can choose to feel thankful. I thank God everyday for even tiny little things that nobody would notice. I have gotten in the habit of just thanking Him for anything and everything. And the Bible says God loves a grateful heart. You will be fine. I'm praying for you and I'm sure there are others on this board who are praying too. God bless you and keep you! (Yes! Patience is key!!!!)