I used to have this problem until realizing the Lord has been fair dealing with me.
Everyone has mountains and valleys. But the attention we give to them in our mind and discourse is where the differences lie. I don't sit around discussing my problems. I resolve the issue or take it to the Lord in prayer and leave it there. I don't meditate on difficulties because it attracts a spirit of heaviness. I've you've read psalm 91 you know what it is.
When I share my contribution is edifying. A word of advice, support, encouragement, praise, a personal experience that demonstrates faith, overcoming, God's goodness and so on. That's not for me. It's for the one who needs to hear it. My intention is to sow seeds and bless. I'm not asking for anything in return. That's why you don't see questions or prayer requests because I'm serving.
I still don't like mingling with affluent people. Usually, they're just lying about the state of their lives, pretending everything is perfect but is actually the opposite. The lies of other people can rub on your soul. It's not good.
That may be the case or maybe not. Our choices contribute to our reality. I broke a friendship over this. During a period of great uncertainty for the world the person was upset that I wasn't upset or vexed to a comparable degree. I'm at home like the rest. But I have protests, violence, vandalism and looting outside my window and we're on the news. But I guess that's not enough.
Getting upset wasn't going to change what happened. You make the best of things and trust the Lord and He came through. I'm still working and the digital community came together. We were helping each other, buying people's products who were struggling, offering services, support, discounts and freebies. We took care of one another and rallied together.
To combat what I was experiencing in my area I invested in personal development. I had people I worked with and added more to keep my focus where it belonged. Everywhere I was being affirmed and supported and in the company of others desiring the same. I wasn't on social media or here initially. I was taking care of bella and my loved ones.
When the person told me they didn't have my perfect life that was the line. The unreality of that statement during that period was so ridiculous I didn't even respond. As the meltdown occurred I'm completely calm. Once you say something that dumb you're not going to stop yourself. You'll let it all out and realize what you've done afterward. And when a person's entitled they don't believe you'll call their bluff. But everybody has their breaking point.
The individual lost their greatest advocate that day. No one would do more on their behalf besides their spouse. They would have been privy to what was done for my family to assure their assent and welfare too. I forgave the person the moment they ceased to speak. But it was clear we'd reached a fork in the road and it would happen again. And I relinquished the connection.
It's dangerous to believe you can't be replaced. I don't mean that in the sense you're thrown over for someone else. But the belief that your behavior doesn't have consequences and the other will never get tired. We have to treat the people in our lives with respect and gratitude.
Be careful of assumptions. You never know who God has put in your life to bless you. If you're entertaining errant ideas you may miss it. And several have with me.
I like Oriental, South Asian, Arabic, Mexican/Spanish foods. I also enjoy American fast food and their high carb meals (like roasted fish served with mashed potatoes, gravy, and assorted vegetables for example). Sounds a bit unhealthy but I can easily burn through the calories with exercise.
You have a diverse diet and I do as well. I don't eat sweets too often but I like dark chocolate. Summer is the hardest time for me food wise. My appetite is really small. I'm not real hungry. But it picks up in the fall. When I'm busy I may forget to eat and don't realize it because the hunger pangs didn't arrive.
But in most days, it's only cheap chili Spanish sardines and some vegetables, some cheese added to add taste and the milkshake with beer.
I look forward to the time when your feasts are all you've craved and plentiful. You've earned it.
I like calm too but in literal terms. If it's my choice, I prefer rural or small town living.
I've always liked the countryside but the pandemic was the thing that made me tire of the city because of the unrest. The unpredictability of human emotions coupled with numbers, merchandise and varying degrees of unstableness is a walking molotov no one expects. I've had the experience and conveniences. Letting them go wasn't difficult.
Unless you knew them personally, you'll never get the idea they were actually rich.
Why do they do it? Do you make Chinese dishes too?
He's not a tightwad. He wasn't expecting the conversation and I caught him off guard. My delights typically involve handbags or something feminine. This was more like something you'd expect from the Kardashians. But shock value aside, he chose a fashion designer. And he knows how they are because he's worked with them professionally. You can't be surprised that I can be 'extra'. The whole thing's a spectacle. Look at the shows.
My deportment and appearance are elegant. That's my style. But you can't do that unless there's something else. You're the visionary. I have my extremes as well. But they're respectable so you don't notice. I like corsets and want to tight lace which makes the waist smaller. I prefer dresses and heels and like 50s fashion. I'll be walking around looking like I came from another era and I sew. I said I like aesthetics and named them. They're productive but they're extra. I'm not flashy that's the difference.
The younger generations however, they no longer seem able to put up with little. Everything has to look nice and expensive in order to feel comfort.
They like to show what they have on social media and tell the world they're going out of town. While they're gone they're breaking in. It happens all the time. Then they post a picture and the house is empty or that expensive collection is gone. And you're staring at the screen and you're stupefied. Cause you can't believe it.
There's certain things I wanted to do but I changed my mind because I realized this wasn't the right society. They'll doxx you in a heartbeat. I unfriended my family years ago and only have business connections. My relatives used to visit for the holidays. He'd be online describing the itinerary and the road trip and when they returned. He'd tell them who he visiting and called everyone by name. And always said, Hi Family. I got rid of him quick.
~bella
