He is obsessed

[Lady Bug]

I just need to unload this. I'm sorry. I don't want to keep making these kinds of posts but please consider how painful it is for me.

My dad is on a new kick to sabotage my walk with God. The newest thing is him saying how he wants to bring relatives from Pakistan (he doesn’t say who though) to live closer to us – and when I expressed my objection, he retorted “Is CHRISTIANITY more important??” When I accused him of doing this on purpose, he denied it, but I don’t believe it. He knows how much this makes me uncomfortable, and I don't doubt for a single moment that he doesn't relish in what he believes is the "fact" that I will give up the faith for the sake of his relatives, who I have no responsibility to obey. Even if my dad is doing this out of genuine desire to have his family around, I can't believe that he isn't dying for this to happen to me.

I'm not sure I can get Communion next time around (I just did confession on Ash Wednesday) because the thought crossed my mind "I hate his guts." I tried to sweep it aside, and I think I did (I don't know how long it took), but I'm still nothing short of exasperated at him.

 

[RileyG]

Prayers for you.

Pray, hope, don't worry.

 

[Chrystal-J]

Hope you can find peace in this situation.

 

[chevyontheriver]

I just need to unload this. I'm sorry. I don't want to keep making these kinds of posts but please consider how painful it is for me.

My dad is on a new kick to sabotage my walk with God. The newest thing is him saying how he wants to bring relatives from Pakistan (he doesn’t say who though) to live closer to us – and when I expressed my objection, he retorted “Is CHRISTIANITY more important??” When I accused him of doing this on purpose, he denied it, but I don’t believe it. He knows how much this makes me uncomfortable, and I don't doubt for a single moment that he doesn't relish in what he believes is the "fact" that I will give up the faith for the sake of his relatives, who I have no responsibility to obey. Even if my dad is doing this out of genuine desire to have his family around, I can't believe that he isn't dying for this to happen to me.

I'm not sure I can get Communion next time around (I just did confession on Ash Wednesday) because the thought crossed my mind "I hate his guts." I tried to sweep it aside, and I think I did (I don't know how long it took), but I'm still nothing short of exasperated at him.

Exasperating. Does he realize the anguish he causes you?

Do you have the ability to live independently?

 

[Lady Bug]

Exasperating. Does he realize the anguish he causes you?

Do you have the ability to live independently?

I don't want to give my life's story but no I don't have the ability to live independently, but neither does my dad (he has different reasons for not being able to be independent though). Even if I could live independently, if such relatives were to move near us, I still don't feel like I can escape having to "abide by their lifestyle." I just want to be away from these people and for them not to know where I lived, if I did live independently. I feel like I'm "hating" people I never met, but if you were me, you'd understand these feelings. I was in my 20s when I started feeling this despair about my future, and I didn't know that I'd still be writing about this in my 40s. This is ridiculous.

 

[WarriorAngel]

I don't want to give my life's story but no I don't have the ability to live independently, but neither does my dad (he has different reasons for not being able to be independent though). Even if I could live independently, if such relatives were to move near us, I still don't feel like I can escape having to "abide by their lifestyle." I just want to be away from these people and for them not to know where I lived, if I did live independently. I feel like I'm "hating" people I never met, but if you were me, you'd understand these feelings. I was in my 20s when I started feeling this despair about my future, and I didn't know that I'd still be writing about this in my 40s. This is ridiculous.

My only advice is offer this to the Lord on behalf of your dads conversion.

The oyster takes the sand irritating it and turns it into a pearl.
HUGS

 

[ReesePiece23]

“Is CHRISTIANITY more important??.

Well, yeah...

Where's the grey area?

 

[RileyG]

continued prayers

 

[RileyG]

I don't want to give my life's story but no I don't have the ability to live independently, but neither does my dad (he has different reasons for not being able to be independent though). Even if I could live independently, if such relatives were to move near us, I still don't feel like I can escape having to "abide by their lifestyle." I just want to be away from these people and for them not to know where I lived, if I did live independently. I feel like I'm "hating" people I never met, but if you were me, you'd understand these feelings. I was in my 20s when I started feeling this despair about my future, and I didn't know that I'd still be writing about this in my 40s. This is ridiculous.

I am in my late 20s and do not have the ability to live independently either (I cannot drive due to panic attacks, my dad will be 70 this month, my mom is 60, but I work full time). I live in the midwest where public transportation is beyond terrible. I was abused a lot during driver's ed and according to a counselor I have PTSD. I will not go further on. I bet by the time I am in my 40s my dad will probably be dead and my mom will be very old. I do not know what he future has in store for me. I can only trust in God's mercy and faithfulness.

Keep praying. It's all you can do.

 

[WarriorAngel]

I am in my late 20s and do not have the ability to live independently either (I cannot drive due to panic attacks, my dad will be 70 this month, my mom is 60, but I work full time). I live in the midwest where public transportation is beyond terrible. I was abused a lot during driver's ed and according to a counselor I have PTSD. I will not go further on. I bet by the time I am in my 40s my dad will probably be dead and my mom will be very old. I do not know what he future has in store for me. I can only trust in God's mercy and faithfulness.

Keep praying. It's all you can do.

I'm adding this intention in my prayers, friend.