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God promises in His word that He honors those who honor Him. How has God honored you as you have waited upon and honored Him? Please share your testimonies! They will help to encourage me. And others!
I praise God for his lovingkindness and mercy. He has not dealt with me as my deeds deserve. He has taken up residence inside me, changing me instead of making me worthy. HE is the righteousness I so hungered for. HE is my source of life. I no longer look for Heaven as a relief from this life, so much as to finally see him as he is, and to know him as I am known --to be one with him.

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God promises in His word that He honors those who honor Him. How has God honored you as you have waited upon and honored Him? Please share your testimonies! They will help to encourage me. And others!
I am not writing to bash or belittle anyone, this is really just to help me get through and help sort out and work through what I have lived and am currently "growing" through. I am positive I am NOT ALONE!

About a month ago, My Father God gave me 2 Samuel 22:49. I have been continually meditating on it, knowing God's word is true and He is FAITHFUL TO FULFILL IT!! It's amazing how wonderful and sweet our Father is because it was a few months ago he revealed to me, what I have been living is NOT OK! If anyone understands how abuse gets to be the norm and women who actually have a heart for the things of God, have the tendency to make excuses or blame themselves for the wrong. You know, if I were a better wife or more submissive etc. and of course echoed by the abuser themselves and Churches can unwittingly participate as well. But I am here to say that is garbage my SISTERS. It is NOT God's will for you to be abused even if it is not physical but emotional and/or mental. Nope!

About 4 years ago I reached out to my church and their response was for me to focus on being "Thankful." I can't blame them, most churches fail to teach and preach about the importance of RELATIONSHIP with Jesus, it's more Doctrinal preaching, which the enemy uses to his advantage for sure. So of course they don't know what to do with the hurting people in their pews. Church will not save you, only a relationship with your Savior Jesus will. I can't help but think The Church has failed in so many areas over many decades and they have grown lazy and fallen asleep. I know I am not alone in having the revelation that Churches are FILLED with people who think they are SAVED but indeed they are NOT. I also think the Pastors and Preacher will have to answer for what they are NOT preaching or teaching. However, I do think people are waking up and hungering for TRUTH!

So when their advice to my asking for help was to watch their video series called "Thanksgiving Victory" I did! I thought it was the answer and I trusted they new what they were talking about. Well, it really caused me to PRESS IN to GOD for HELP! I stopped talking to the one and only person I shared with about my situation and went to my FATHER for everything! It was the best decision because I would never have learned what a RELATIONSHIP with FATHER, JESUS and THE HOLY SPIRIT was if I didn't get the door slammed in my face and told I needed to be more thankful. When you come to the END of yourself and nobody is willing to help, then God will show up for you! But YOU have to choose to turn to him. Yes I am still in the situation, but God gave ME my scripture of DELIVERANCE! I know it will come to pass.

After reaching out again, about 5 weeks ago, because my husband was getting more aggressive and NOT getting better and I felt the Holy Spirit leading me to REVEAL the works of the enemy. It was time to start talking and tell them. I understand my husband was choosing to yield to the enemy and his flesh and not to the Holy Spirit despite all the sermons and teachings my Pastor taught on the subject. I do not blame my Church for my husbands behavior, and it is their choice not to council or speak to us, they have their reasons and God will deal with it, not me. However, I realized after I sent the last email, the response was from the person who works for the church and answers prayer request. She is the one who responded years ago too. After reading her response, I got a revelation and confirmation of her fakeness. I always noticed her forced being "NICE" to people, but I just ignored it. The actual word that came up in my spirit was "clock puncher Christian." She does what she has to in order to get her job done with the least amount of effort. I got the best effort of "we are praying for you." Aww Thanks! We have had quite a few people in our Church pass away recently and one for sure was a suicide. It really did occur to me no wonder, since nobody is willing to reach out when people try to get help. But I recently found out they do council people, but it's only if they are MINISTERS or are in MINISTRY, not for regular sheep I guess.

So back to my marriage. I started to make boundaries! My first boundary was telling my husband your not allowed to talk to me that way and I will walk away if you do. That was harder than you think! Because I had to learn NOT to engage in defending myself! I still fail with that. My second decision was to NOT keep my mouth shut when he was watching or doing something that went against our Christian values! It was so strong in my spirit to REVEAL the WORK of the ENEMY! So of course that would cause a great deal of wrath! And Religious Spirit would say "you are NOT to point out peoples sin." Too BAD! There really comes a time when you have given chance after chance and tried to reason and pray and consider yourself and look to God for answers to what you are doing wrong, that God reveals hidden truths about that person. They will say something that will be a confirmation from God that you are on the right track. Father protects me! I have to say He showed up in BIG ways! Angry fits of throwing things and NOT ONE thing hit me!!!! I learned to sing praises to my Father during these times or pray out loud thanking My Father for LOVING ME! God is Good! I have moved out of the bedroom into my prayer room and that is where I spend my time when he is home. I get accused of being unforgiving and harboring bitterness, but I know that is not true. I look to my Father to search my heart and ask Him to correct me. He teaches me and instructs me down the paths that I must go and He guides me with His eye. He also shows up strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to HIM. It is ok to set boundaries to protect your heart and to have peace. God had boundaries and we read about Jesus implementing a boundary when He was flipping tables and running everyone out of the Temple courts! I wouldn't have realized this if I didn't choose to press into Jesus. I am still walking through this. Two days ago, he called me from work to try to be nice but I quickly realized he had an agenda and was ready to pounce. He was really calling because he was angry that I am still not removing my boundaries and his flesh NEEDS affection. When I tried to bring up for discussion WHY I am not willing to get close. He did not react well because that isn't allowed. He doesn't want to discuss any action or abusive word he says or does. So I told him the conversation was over and hung up. He started to text me his a garbage. But that's ok! I still have 2 Samuel 22:49!! The next day as usual he came home and it was back to pretending he did nothing. That's his way. He can cuss me out and throw things and call me horrible names and say how he hates me, but I am NOT allowed to bring it up. I can't discuss why it is wrong or ask questions. He will accuse me of putting CONDEMNATION on him and that's of the DEVIL. LOL. It's NO accountability Christianity. It's manipulation! I lived like that for YEARS with him. But GOD!!!!! He is So GOOD!!!! He showed me this and I have confidence what I am doing is right!!! I say what needs to be said and God protects me. I say it with confidence and clarity. I speak God's truth to him and declare deliverance! His response proves to me I am doing the right thing and he still can't be trusted. A person who is truly humble and actually repents, will be willing to discuss anything they have done wrong to the person they have wronged. "If anyone has ought against you, leave your offering at the altar and go and make it right with them, then return." He however chose to spray me in the face with water because I told him I wasn't going to pretend yesterday didn't happen. It just proves to me he hasn't repented despite his continued speech of "Jesus forgives me." Only repentance gains God's forgiveness and it is evidence by your fruit. If your fruit is rotten then so are you. We have free will and WE have to choose to do what is right. God will not choose for us. We must work out our own Salvation with fear and trembling (reverence) for God.

I bet your wondering why I don't leave. Well, the answer is I am waiting on my Father's direction. When He gave me my scripture a few weeks ago, I know He answered my prayer. Now it is up to me to be in faith and continue to look and listen for my next step. Believe me! I look at places to move and talk to the Lord about it. But my ways are not His ways. My thoughts are not His thoughts. What I WANT to do is HIS will for my life. I TRUST my Father, I have to stay in Faith that He is and He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek HIM!

I don't know what the future holds or what exactly my scripture of deliverance entails. But I know it is for my good! But most importantly I know It will give GOD all the GLORY!

TO BE CONTINUED......
 
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I am not writing to bash or belittle anyone, this is really just to help me get through and help sort out and work through what I have lived and am currently "growing" through. I am positive I am NOT ALONE!

About a month ago, My Father God gave me 2 Samuel 22:49. I have been continually meditating on it, knowing God's word is true and He is FAITHFUL TO FULFILL IT!! It's amazing how wonderful and sweet our Father is because it was a few months ago he revealed to me, what I have been living is NOT OK! If anyone understands how abuse gets to be the norm and women who actually have a heart for the things of God, have the tendency to make excuses or blame themselves for the wrong. You know, if I were a better wife or more submissive etc. and of course echoed by the abuser themselves and Churches can unwittingly participate as well. But I am here to say that is garbage my SISTERS. It is NOT God's will for you to be abused even if it is not physical but emotional and/or mental. Nope!

About 4 years ago I reached out to my church and their response was for me to focus on being "Thankful." I can't blame them, most churches fail to teach and preach about the importance of RELATIONSHIP with Jesus, it's more Doctrinal preaching, which the enemy uses to his advantage for sure. So of course they don't know what to do with the hurting people in their pews. Church will not save you, only a relationship with your Savior Jesus will. I can't help but think The Church has failed in so many areas over many decades and they have grown lazy and fallen asleep. I know I am not alone in having the revelation that Churches are FILLED with people who think they are SAVED but indeed they are NOT. I also think the Pastors and Preacher will have to answer for what they are NOT preaching or teaching. However, I do think people are waking up and hungering for TRUTH!

So when their advice to my asking for help was to watch their video series called "Thanksgiving Victory" I did! I thought it was the answer and I trusted they new what they were talking about. Well, it really caused me to PRESS IN to GOD for HELP! I stopped talking to the one and only person I shared with about my situation and went to my FATHER for everything! It was the best decision because I would never have learned what a RELATIONSHIP with FATHER, JESUS and THE HOLY SPIRIT was if I didn't get the door slammed in my face and told I needed to be more thankful. When you come to the END of yourself and nobody is willing to help, then God will show up for you! But YOU have to choose to turn to him. Yes I am still in the situation, but God gave ME my scripture of DELIVERANCE! I know it will come to pass.

After reaching out again, about 5 weeks ago, because my husband was getting more aggressive and NOT getting better and I felt the Holy Spirit leading me to REVEAL the works of the enemy. It was time to start talking and tell them. I understand my husband was choosing to yield to the enemy and his flesh and not to the Holy Spirit despite all the sermons and teachings my Pastor taught on the subject. I do not blame my Church for my husbands behavior, and it is their choice not to council or speak to us, they have their reasons and God will deal with it, not me. However, I realized after I sent the last email, the response was from the person who works for the church and answers prayer request. She is the one who responded years ago too. After reading her response, I got a revelation and confirmation of her fakeness. I always noticed her forced being "NICE" to people, but I just ignored it. The actual word that came up in my spirit was "clock puncher Christian." She does what she has to in order to get her job done with the least amount of effort. I got the best effort of "we are praying for you." Aww Thanks! We have had quite a few people in our Church pass away recently and one for sure was a suicide. It really did occur to me no wonder, since nobody is willing to reach out when people try to get help. But I recently found out they do council people, but it's only if they are MINISTERS or are in MINISTRY, not for regular sheep I guess.

So back to my marriage. I started to make boundaries! My first boundary was telling my husband your not allowed to talk to me that way and I will walk away if you do. That was harder than you think! Because I had to learn NOT to engage in defending myself! I still fail with that. My second decision was to NOT keep my mouth shut when he was watching or doing something that went against our Christian values! It was so strong in my spirit to REVEAL the WORK of the ENEMY! So of course that would cause a great deal of wrath! And Religious Spirit would say "you are NOT to point out peoples sin." Too BAD! There really comes a time when you have given chance after chance and tried to reason and pray and consider yourself and look to God for answers to what you are doing wrong, that God reveals hidden truths about that person. They will say something that will be a confirmation from God that you are on the right track. Father protects me! I have to say He showed up in BIG ways! Angry fits of throwing things and NOT ONE thing hit me!!!! I learned to sing praises to my Father during these times or pray out loud thanking My Father for LOVING ME! God is Good! I have moved out of the bedroom into my prayer room and that is where I spend my time when he is home. I get accused of being unforgiving and harboring bitterness, but I know that is not true. I look to my Father to search my heart and ask Him to correct me. He teaches me and instructs me down the paths that I must go and He guides me with His eye. He also shows up strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to HIM. It is ok to set boundaries to protect your heart and to have peace. God had boundaries and we read about Jesus implementing a boundary when He was flipping tables and running everyone out of the Temple courts! I wouldn't have realized this if I didn't choose to press into Jesus. I am still walking through this. Two days ago, he called me from work to try to be nice but I quickly realized he had an agenda and was ready to pounce. He was really calling because he was angry that I am still not removing my boundaries and his flesh NEEDS affection. When I tried to bring up for discussion WHY I am not willing to get close. He did not react well because that isn't allowed. He doesn't want to discuss any action or abusive word he says or does. So I told him the conversation was over and hung up. He started to text me his a garbage. But that's ok! I still have 2 Samuel 22:49!! The next day as usual he came home and it was back to pretending he did nothing. That's his way. He can cuss me out and throw things and call me horrible names and say how he hates me, but I am NOT allowed to bring it up. I can't discuss why it is wrong or ask questions. He will accuse me of putting CONDEMNATION on him and that's of the DEVIL. LOL. It's NO accountability Christianity. It's manipulation! I lived like that for YEARS with him. But GOD!!!!! He is So GOOD!!!! He showed me this and I have confidence what I am doing is right!!! I say what needs to be said and God protects me. I say it with confidence and clarity. I speak God's truth to him and declare deliverance! His response proves to me I am doing the right thing and he still can't be trusted. A person who is truly humble and actually repents, will be willing to discuss anything they have done wrong to the person they have wronged. "If anyone has ought against you, leave your offering at the altar and go and make it right with them, then return." He however chose to spray me in the face with water because I told him I wasn't going to pretend yesterday didn't happen. It just proves to me he hasn't repented despite his continued speech of "Jesus forgives me." Only repentance gains God's forgiveness and it is evidence by your fruit. If your fruit is rotten then so are you. We have free will and WE have to choose to do what is right. God will not choose for us. We must work out our own Salvation with fear and trembling (reverence) for God.

I bet your wondering why I don't leave. Well, the answer is I am waiting on my Father's direction. When He gave me my scripture a few weeks ago, I know He answered my prayer. Now it is up to me to be in faith and continue to look and listen for my next step. Believe me! I look at places to move and talk to the Lord about it. But my ways are not His ways. My thoughts are not His thoughts. What I WANT to do is HIS will for my life. I TRUST my Father, I have to stay in Faith that He is and He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek HIM!

I don't know what the future holds or what exactly my scripture of deliverance entails. But I know it is for my good! But most importantly I know It will give GOD all the GLORY!

TO BE CONTINUED......
Not that I can identify with all you say here --I can't, though I also can identify with some of it-- but what I want to remark on is the tendency I have noticed even since childhood, of Christians to deal with things in a mechanical sort of fashion. "You need to speak with a professional Christian, the pastor, or a paid elder, about that" "Well, here's why you aren't living a victorious Christian life! --You still lack the understanding of this fact or that." --and so on. If God hadn't made himself real to me, I would have abandoned the faith years ago.
 
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Not that I can identify with all you say here --I can't, though I also can identify with some of it-- but what I want to remark on is the tendency I have noticed even since childhood, of Christians to deal with things in a mechanical sort of fashion. "You need to speak with a professional Christian, the pastor, or a paid elder, about that" "Well, here's why you aren't living a victorious Christian life! --You still lack the understanding of this fact or that." --and so on. If God hadn't made himself real to me, I would have abandoned the faith years ago.
God is VERY REAL to me. The emphasis and what appears to be lacking in the "Christian label" that gets slung around is RELATIONSHIP. I am NOT against Church! However, you speak as though I haven't tried to speak to my Pastor or those in leadership. I have and WE have.... it's NOT available at our church. We are told to watch "Anointed videos" of past teachings and preaching. The problem with that answer is when someone who doesn't seek a relationship with Christ outside of a church building, the enemy facilitates them "cherry picking" what they hear to their advantage. True change comes from and ENCOUNTER with Jesus.... not raise your hand and repeat after me. Now your saved! YAYYYY!
 
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God is VERY REAL to me. The emphasis and what appears to be lacking in the "Christian label" that gets slung around is RELATIONSHIP. I am NOT against Church! However, you speak as though I haven't tried to speak to my Pastor or those in leadership. I have and WE have.... it's NOT available at our church. We are told to watch "Anointed videos" of past teachings and preaching. The problem with that answer is when someone who doesn't seek a relationship with Christ outside of a church building, the enemy facilitates them "cherry picking" what they hear to their advantage. True change comes from and ENCOUNTER with Jesus.... not raise your hand and repeat after me. Now your saved! YAYYYY!
No! no! I was agreeing with you! Notice I put quotes around the statements, I am complaining about the stupid cold mechanical thinking of Christians. I was saying that believers seem to think it is not their job to deal with the hard stuff that others are going through, and that they lack the knowledge and understanding (and empathy) of bearing one-another's burdens, or taking action when it is necessary.

I remember reading once about a church, probably centuries ago, now, in which an abused wife was protected and "the stout men of the church" paid the husband a visit, and he learned never to strike her again. I wish we had more of that kind of thing nowadays.

How many times I've heard members in tears praying to God for some situation brought before them during Wednesday's prayer meeting, and during the week they never call, and the next week's prayer meeting, they can't even remember to ask how things went about the situation!

But, I'm a hypocrite. By my own standard I will be measured. Still, it galls me.
 
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No! no! I was agreeing with you! Notice I put quotes around the statements, I am complaining about the stupid cold mechanical thinking of Christians. I was saying that believers seem to think it is not their job to deal with the hard stuff that others are going through, and that they lack the knowledge and understanding (and empathy) of bearing one-another's burdens, or taking action when it is necessary.

I remember reading once about a church, probably centuries ago, now, in which an abused wife was protected and "the stout men of the church" paid the husband a visit, and he learned never to strike her again. I wish we had more of that kind of thing nowadays.

How many times I've heard members in tears praying to God for some situation brought before them during Wednesday's prayer meeting, and during the week they never call, and the next week's prayer meeting, they can't even remember to ask how things went about the situation!

But, I'm a hypocrite. By my own standard I will be measure. Still, it galls me.
 
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For 17 years I have had a speech impediment (stuttering). I stuttered so bad I could not even say my own name. Finally God spoke to me and told me to take an obscure supplement called methoxyisoflavone and it has miraculously cured me of the condition, without a trace! It is gone! I have searched far and wide on the internet about this and have found nothing, this could possibly be unknown to medical science! I just got on the horn with multiple medical schools- Liberty University med school, Johns Hopkins, George Washington Med School, and Penn State Med School in Hershey and told them about this, this could potentially be a breakthrough treatment for stuttering that would help everyone, millions of people with the condition! It is an HONOR for God to use me in this fashion!
 
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For 17 years I have had a speech impediment (stuttering). I stuttered so bad I could not even say my own name. Finally God spoke to me and told me to take an obscure supplement called methoxyisoflavone and it has miraculously cured me of the condition, without a trace! It is gone! I have searched far and wide on the internet about this and have found nothing, this could possibly be unknown to medical science! I just got on the horn with multiple medical schools- Liberty University med school, Johns Hopkins, George Washington Med School, and Penn State Med School in Hershey and told them about this, this could potentially be a breakthrough treatment for stuttering that would help everyone, millions of people with the condition! It is an HONOR for God to use me in this fashion!

Glory to God, you always have beautiful testimonies Dave :)
 
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God has certainly blessed me abundantly. He has granted me wonderful friends and family who are always willing to listen and help when they can. He has seen me through health issues including two very recent strokes that occurred within days of each other and it appears I will make a full recovery. He has seen fit to grant me a stable support system as I battle with OCD that can be debilitating. All this and more He has granted even while I have backslid and my faith has waxed and waned. He has welcomed me back and clothed me and made merry as I have played the prodigal son. I pray God will continue to grant me mercy as I strive to endure to the end and I long to here His words "Well done, good and faithful servant".
 
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God has certainly blessed me abundantly. He has granted me wonderful friends and family who are always willing to listen and help when they can. He has seen me through health issues including two very recent strokes that occurred within days of each other and it appears I will make a full recovery. He has seen fit to grant me a stable support system as I battle with OCD that can be debilitating. All this and more He has granted even while I have backslid and my faith has waxed and waned. He has welcomed me back and clothed me and made merry as I have played the prodigal son. I pray God will continue to grant me mercy as I strive to endure to the end and I long to here His words "Well done, good and faithful servant".

Glory to God. It's so lovely when prodigals return home to the loving Father whose arms are open for His children :) It's also lovely to reflect and see how God has always been there for us... even when we flatly reject Him! God is always good :)
 
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