- Jul 21, 2015
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- UK-Liberal-Democrats
I haven't been to the forums here for several months now since I felt like an outsider, and even unwanted since I questioned the way politics seem to be very intertwined with the churches in USA and as a European I feel like the political ideas are very foreign and I honestly don't understand much of it and specially not how it's mixed up with religion, and most people here seem to be Americans. I'm in a tiny country with around 5 million people, and it's very unusual to be a convinced Christian here, a typical answer about religion is "I think there's something out there" and that's pretty much as far as the conversation go, but if it's about talking negatively about faith, then there's a lot more very passionate opinions, and I'm honestly just sick of hearing about the same things, and if I happen to actually meet someone that actually believe, then most of the time it's people that have grown up in a Christian home if they have anything positive to say about faith and personalities that are very unlike myself and making me feel as an outsider again. There are simply no online communities for Christians in my own country. I've tried to visit a local evangelical Church, but nobody show any signs that they have noticed that I am new there and I'm very shy myself, struggle with a (un)fair amount of social and general anxiety. I have totally given up the idea of ever finding a partner and love, so that's also limiting to me, I do enjoy chatting to women and often feel that it's easier and more varied conversations, and I can avoid things I have never had interest in, but that men ordinary talk a lot about.
I'm completely stuck at home, too ill to work, the only people I know are in active substance abuse, something that matters for me since I'm trying to stay clean personally, from previous addiction problems. I don't have any social life, since I don't do anything active that involves meeting other people doing similar things. I am pretty depressed and have problems to enjoy the few things I have to do at home. I don't listen to music anymore for example, and feel every day is just the same as the one yesterday. My cat are seriously more active then me, and he sleeps more then half of his time away.
So I feel quite hopeless about life, don't think there's much coming in the future, but almost as if I'm a senior and that it's most sensible to just retire from the world and as if I just sit and wait to die, and the same time not feeling really alive anyway.
I don't know if there's anything that can be said about all of this that might help me. Let me know if you can think of something.
I'm completely stuck at home, too ill to work, the only people I know are in active substance abuse, something that matters for me since I'm trying to stay clean personally, from previous addiction problems. I don't have any social life, since I don't do anything active that involves meeting other people doing similar things. I am pretty depressed and have problems to enjoy the few things I have to do at home. I don't listen to music anymore for example, and feel every day is just the same as the one yesterday. My cat are seriously more active then me, and he sleeps more then half of his time away.
So I feel quite hopeless about life, don't think there's much coming in the future, but almost as if I'm a senior and that it's most sensible to just retire from the world and as if I just sit and wait to die, and the same time not feeling really alive anyway.
I don't know if there's anything that can be said about all of this that might help me. Let me know if you can think of something.