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yrs ago at a church home we dearly loved my husband became associate pastor because of Biblical disagreements we stepped down , yet had Blessing from to (Praise God) to begin another church somewhat far away under the same Branch yet with another couple he was to be associate again. All was wonderful got it done by the grace of God. When it came time for paperwork the other couple made it so they were deciding vote on all things my husband was made part of the team and to preach only when needed but not given the position of associate no one was. We loved we worked and served so happy to be a part,after a year we saw too much pride and control to the point on said couples part where I believe it was just abusive to all and again stepped down said church has now closed its doors the couple walked away from all parishioners saying at first because they didn't make any money then saying God told them they weren't doing it for Him . The kicker is as this was going on they found another preaching position in another state. My problem is us, we haven't been studying, really being close or praying much at all since then it's been 2 years and as much as We try to keep reading, praying, listening,because we miss and we do not feel as though we hear Him anymore when we open His word. We see his Blessings protection and love in our lives daily but feel as though we cannot hear. What can we do now?
 
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Hi,

I can't advise because you are far more experienced and maturer believers than I. I just want to say that I feel for you and having read another thread of yours as well as this.

Revelation 3:18 comes to mind. Seek Him, rest in Him and trust in Him. He will regenerate your faith, He will renew your desire for Him in the only way that you can. Don't let yourself get in the way. You say you can see His blessings around you. Praise Him and trust Him to order your steps. He is faithful.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Also, ask Him to help you forgive those who have wounded you. Pray for them. (Have to laugh at my audacity to advise after recognising that I can't)
 
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That was very well put thank you do not undercut yoursel as less mature! God gives much wisdom and word to whomever he chooses! I definitely need to learn how to forgive I believe my husband was truly hurt me not that much I know who I am,how I pray we would both get past it and move forward I know and I know He is called I just don't want us too miss it, the valley is getting old but of course we hold on!
 
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That was very well put thank you do not undercut yoursel as less mature! God gives much wisdom and word to whomever he chooses! I definitely need to learn how to forgive I believe my husband was truly hurt me not that much I know who I am,how I pray we would both get past it and move forward I know and I know He is called I just don't want us too miss it, the valley is getting old but of course we hold on!
Thank you for your encouragement. He is still teaching me the basics and in the most wonderful of ways. I was in the 'wilderness' for 15 years because I didn't understand His forgiveness. I only realised 3 years ago I was forgiven when I prayed without words not wanting to lie to Him by promising what I couldn't do. I picked up my bible and it told me to 'get up and walk!'

Fancy that! 15 years of wanting to have that relationship back that I felt wasn't there. Trying for weeks at a time, reading my bible constantly etc. I was even miraculously healed when telling someone that God would heal me if I believed 100% and if it was in His will. Even that didn't solve it.

However, when He told me to get up and walk I obeyed. Immediately, I realised I was in Him. I have learned since that I can never be good enough to deserve salvation and that it doesn't work like that. I don't know what is going on for you but sometimes it is the simplest of things that make us feel like something is wrong.
 
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We try to keep reading, praying, listening,because we miss and we do not feel as though we hear Him anymore when we open His word. We see his Blessings protection and love in our lives daily but feel as though we cannot hear. What can we do now?

It's sad to hear of people wounded by ministry politics.

Don't let the devil have this victory. Push him aside and move on.

Find another ministry position or build your own home church.

Don't wait on God - He's waiting on you.
 
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Thank you for your encouragement. He is still teaching me the basics and in the most wonderful of ways. I was in the 'wilderness' for 15 years because I didn't understand His forgiveness. I only realised 3 years ago I was forgiven when I prayed without words not wanting to lie to Him by promising what I couldn't do. I picked up my bible and it told me to 'get up and walk!'

Fancy that! 15 years of wanting to have that relationship back that I felt wasn't there. Trying for weeks at a time, reading my bible constantly etc. I was even miraculously healed when telling someone that God would heal me if I believed 100% and if it was in His will. Even that didn't solve it.

However, when He told me to get up and walk I obeyed. Immediately, I realised I was in Him. I have learned since that I can never be good enough to deserve salvation and that it doesn't work like that. I don't know what is going on for you but sometimes it is the simplest of things that make us feel like something is wrong.
That is a wonderful story and this will pass for me too I know
 
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It's sad to hear of people wounded by ministry politics.

Don't let the devil have this victory. Push him aside and move on.

Find another ministry position or build your own home church.

Don't wait on God - He's waiting on you.
Ty much
 
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