If logic is not absolute, and virtually all reasoning is flawed or circular, then how were you able to discern that your specific God as the conclusion?
I wouldn't say that all reasoning is flawed. Reasoning is a function of the brain or mind, and brain or mind has limits. Hence I would say that it's limited rather than flawed. I think it's an important distinction before I move on.
I'll try to condense this for you without re-writing what I've already written in other posts on this thread and other threads. It may be difficult to keep it a "few paragraphs" short, so I appreciate your patience in reading this.
As you put it above, there's no way out of the problem of "reason behind the reason", or "justifying justifications". We are left with 4 unsatisfactory options:
1) We can circularly refer to justifications. (logic works because it's valid, and logic is valid because it works ... etc)
2) We can presuppose possible answers without justification, as a necessity for our observations to fit in some intelligible context from which we are able to build a conceptual framework of the world that can have internal logical coherence.
3) We can say "I don't know"
4) We can keep supplying justifications for justifications until we are have no other choice but to resort to 1,2 or 3.
Neither choice is inherently satisfactory or comfortable in our pursuit of truth, but such is our limits.
I have to define meaning of the word "meaning" before we move on, with all of the unintended irony that would bring. But I have to do it before we move on.
By "meaning" we generally communicate:
1) That whatever is in question is significant in a sense that it has inherent (or perceived) information that's intended to be communicated to the observer.
2) As such, it has some inherent and intended (or perceived) purpose in context of that information.
So, when you find "cvanwey" carved into a tree, for example, there are good reasons for you to assume that it's not coincidental and that it means something specific with a purpose of communicating something specific. In such, you have a brain that can recognize it, and you have a reality that's able to be consistently intelligible to allow for such meaning communication/recognition to take place.
Ok... moving on.
If we discuss the nature of reality in context of our perceived meaning we can conceptualize 2 options:
1) Reality was purposefully arranged to be such by an intelligent being that constructed reality in such a way on purpose (with intent), hence we have intended meaning when we look at the reality. It's not arbitrary. We may or may not recognize it. We may recognize some. But we recognize it because our brain as a mechanism can do such a thing, because it was intended to do it. And it can recognize the reality, because reality was created intelligible in a way that our brain can recognize it.
2) There is no creator of reality. Reality just happened, and there is no intended meaning or purpose. Meaning is merely a projection of our brains that just happened to function the way they do. We subjectively "project" meaning onto everything that we think is intelligible in this reality. Thus, meaning is arbitrary in a sense that brain function is not a product of any intent, but rather a product of accidental "re-shuffling" of reality.
Now, looking at the above two possibilities we can draw some conclusions in context of what we actually do and see.
#1 is consistent with how we behave, and what we appeal to when we communicate to each other, engage in scientific enterprise, philosophy, build logical and legal frameworks, etc. We act as though our reality is meaningful. In fact, most of the time that we spend as humans (besides sleeping) is spent communicating and decoding meaning.
#2 would be much more difficult to justifiable fit into what we observe and how we behave in reality. And I know you probably think that I'm just saying it because I have inherent bias, but that's actually how I concluded that there is likely a God.
Here's why.
If we say that there is no inherent meaning in reality, you are essentially saying that we have a mechanism of the brain that happened to somehow develop as a "meaning communication and decoding process", purely arbitrarily, with no such intended purpose in a context of reality that's absent of inherent meaning. Right off the bat that seems a bit incoherent, both with how we act and what we observe in reality.
So, there is no inherent reason or logic as to why a an intelligent brain (a process for recognizing, contextualizing, and communicating meaning) would develop a in context that has none.
So, if we adopt #2 as a model, it would mean that the reality is rather absurd. Sure, we can "pretend" in a sense that there is meaning where there is none, but there is no ground for justifying anything at all beyond subjective preferences of what we (as a process of our brains) think the meaning should be. It doesn't really compute really well.
So, essentially you could find some meaning by ignoring that fact, and "pretending" or acting as though there is meaning, but in doing so you would be acting out the implications of the model #1 , while at the same time claiming that it's not viable... hence you have the second level of absurdity there.
Hence, for us to viably appeal or justify to some coherent model... we, or at least I (as I've concluded for myself) we have to either presuppose God, or act out the implications of that model while at the same time claiming that such model is not viable.