- Feb 19, 2017
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Hey everybody,
So I went to meet with my local rabbi today. He helps to run a Reform Judaism congregation in my city and anyways, for the past few months, I have been seeing him to study with him about Judaism. It's only VERY recently that I even started to consider joining Christianity again. But now I'm feeling torn between two traditions that I very much seem to like.
Reform Judaism is great because it doesn't require me to compromise any of my beliefs. But then... the fact that it doesn't have Jesus involved in it makes it feel less warm and fuzzy.
And now I'm learning that Episcopal Christianity doesn't require me to compromise any of my beliefs either. Except... well, I'm still not sure where I stand on the whole Jesus thing yet. I'm trying to see if I can get myself to believe in the trinity, but I'm not sure about it yet... I understand how the trinity could work, don't get me wrong. I'm just not sure if I personally believe in it yet.
I've discussed my split feelings with the rabbi before and he told me not to rush myself. He said that this journey that I am on is a very personal one and that I need to take my time and maybe explore a little bit before resting on a final decision. And I think that he's right. My inner voice, also, has told me to just enjoy the experience of learning about other religions and to take my time and not rush things. Being bipolar makes this hard for me as it makes me impulsive and makes me want to jump on a religion's bandwagon as soon as it lands on my radar. But that's not always the wisest decision.
In the end, I guess what this all comes down to is: I need to slow down. Take some time to smell the flowers and read some good religious books. Eventually, one of these religions is bound to click with me and stay, but until then, I guess I just need to take my time.
...That doesn't make this process of not being sure where I belong hurt any less, though.
So I went to meet with my local rabbi today. He helps to run a Reform Judaism congregation in my city and anyways, for the past few months, I have been seeing him to study with him about Judaism. It's only VERY recently that I even started to consider joining Christianity again. But now I'm feeling torn between two traditions that I very much seem to like.
Reform Judaism is great because it doesn't require me to compromise any of my beliefs. But then... the fact that it doesn't have Jesus involved in it makes it feel less warm and fuzzy.
And now I'm learning that Episcopal Christianity doesn't require me to compromise any of my beliefs either. Except... well, I'm still not sure where I stand on the whole Jesus thing yet. I'm trying to see if I can get myself to believe in the trinity, but I'm not sure about it yet... I understand how the trinity could work, don't get me wrong. I'm just not sure if I personally believe in it yet.
I've discussed my split feelings with the rabbi before and he told me not to rush myself. He said that this journey that I am on is a very personal one and that I need to take my time and maybe explore a little bit before resting on a final decision. And I think that he's right. My inner voice, also, has told me to just enjoy the experience of learning about other religions and to take my time and not rush things. Being bipolar makes this hard for me as it makes me impulsive and makes me want to jump on a religion's bandwagon as soon as it lands on my radar. But that's not always the wisest decision.
In the end, I guess what this all comes down to is: I need to slow down. Take some time to smell the flowers and read some good religious books. Eventually, one of these religions is bound to click with me and stay, but until then, I guess I just need to take my time.
...That doesn't make this process of not being sure where I belong hurt any less, though.