I now regret the tattoo of the name "Id" in cursive on my upper arm fourteen years ago. (Id was a character from a popular Squaresoft game back in the late 90's called
Xenogears, called so because he was the angry, violent dark half of the game's protagonist that would manifest himself whenever the protagonist in his normal personality would suffer sudden emotional trauma.) Indeed a foolish thing, as it was mostly on a dare and the promise of 100 dollars from my friends if I had the guts to do it. For some reason, I liked the nickname "Id" that they had all given me at the location of my first ever job at a sandwich deli called La Bella's, and also as a broke college student apparently 100 dollars felt worth the life-permanent marking on my idiot 18 year-old body.
I have always heard that not only is the removal of a tattoo often several times more costly than having gotten it in the first place, but that it is still ever so slightly visible if you look closely enough. I wonder if, should I ever go through with removal and you can still easily see the trace of the previous tattoo, I might as well just have the initials S and K in cursive placed over the original so that it will be more of a fitting replacement, and a bearing I like to think I would take a lot more pride in over the name "Id". I am definitely no longer that man, Id, which I was - however jokingly - called so by my friends at my first job because I unleashed holy hell on one of them one night. And I played up the role of a self-serving take-over-the-world kind of villain to them at the time, which vaguely resembled the character of Id from
Xenogears. Now it is different. I am Sarah's Knight, and I have been so for over a decade, now, and I refuse to ever come to regret being that man. As I rather sincerely regret ever playing the role of Id.