I'll try to explain my current situation, I am not here to preach atheism or anything, I dont even know if I am an atheist/pantheist etc, But I do believe in facts such as evolution and the age of the earth being 4 billion or so years old, it would be hard for me to think otherwise.
Basically Im deeply interested in the origins of the universe, whether there is more then one universe, whether there is more one dimension etc. To put it in a Christian view... why did God have to stop at one universe? But anyway, I'm torturing myself over trying to understand these things and I feel so stranded that all I am is a 'human' stranded on a rock circulating a ball of fiery gas. Ive "broken down" numourously and my definations of right and wrong are warping fast, but... I feel drawn to understanding these things. I "have" to. Who knows, maybe a God is guiding me. But to understand the origins of the universe I regularly strip my human morality and logic to try and see things in more clarity, but to no avail.
I feel I'm almost going insane and I've never been much of a thiest or a Christian but.. in your opinion... is it a "good" thing to be in the search of wisdom? To try and think more like a God or a creator? Am I too in over my head and would the christian God be angry at me for doing this? I feel it would be very easy for me to just.... say Jesus is my savior... but I feel I would be lying and untrue if I did so which seems to me even worse then not saying anything.
Anyway, sorry if I've been rude or offensive somehow in my beliefs, but please understand I am very unsure of many things and I value your opinions on these matters greatly.
May your God be with you.
Basically Im deeply interested in the origins of the universe, whether there is more then one universe, whether there is more one dimension etc. To put it in a Christian view... why did God have to stop at one universe? But anyway, I'm torturing myself over trying to understand these things and I feel so stranded that all I am is a 'human' stranded on a rock circulating a ball of fiery gas. Ive "broken down" numourously and my definations of right and wrong are warping fast, but... I feel drawn to understanding these things. I "have" to. Who knows, maybe a God is guiding me. But to understand the origins of the universe I regularly strip my human morality and logic to try and see things in more clarity, but to no avail.
I feel I'm almost going insane and I've never been much of a thiest or a Christian but.. in your opinion... is it a "good" thing to be in the search of wisdom? To try and think more like a God or a creator? Am I too in over my head and would the christian God be angry at me for doing this? I feel it would be very easy for me to just.... say Jesus is my savior... but I feel I would be lying and untrue if I did so which seems to me even worse then not saying anything.
Anyway, sorry if I've been rude or offensive somehow in my beliefs, but please understand I am very unsure of many things and I value your opinions on these matters greatly.
May your God be with you.