In which Communion? That is the question.
See my signature please.
Thank you for your responses.
Although i was raised Catholic and had to start defending my faith at age 6 or 7...i cant remember - against claims by neighbors who were JW...
I also did this when i dated a JW at age 15.
I did fall from Church attendence. Basically because i tried to discern scriptures for myself.
I was then led into a world of comfort thru sin. Human comforts and sin made me feel i was ok, i was so young it didnt matter.
But in 1992 i had an experience that was very profound. I prayed frequently for faith. Altho mind you i was deeply into anything that came my way.
Reincarnation, oiuja, tarot, whatever worked i was going to do to figure it all out.
Oddly tho, while in the midst of these horrible 'acts' i was even being led to God thru them.
Tarot said i would experience an understanding of the Universe and God and so forth.
the oiuja said i was going to get closer to God.
But the part of the oiuja was...altho it lies and decieves it argued with me. I wont go into details...
Needless to say, i ended up in a battle for my souls life.
I dont know if i was given the gift of discernment of spirits thru turning back to God, but i can promise you that God does exist. I was in a full fledged battle with the spiritual world.
So much so, i had demons attack me literally.
:o And that was because i was pulling out of my comfort szone thru the Virgin Mary who helped me.
I cannot thank her enough.
One thing i knew...was that God did exist and that Mary was never anything but honored by me, and Her Son. Even tho i made more than my share of awful mistakes.
It was my love for her, that probably allowed Jesus to accept me back. I feel that is true.
Anyway, my journey is ongoing, but one thing that did happen to me thru the grace of God was finally understanding scriptures. Like a veil was literally lifted off me and i could see.
Whereas before i used human understanding alone to read them. When i opened my eyes, i was given the grace to see that thru the Church i must read them.
In more recent years i decided to dig even deeper into the Churches history by reading the Early Church fathers who wrote for the Church....and thus only did things become truly understood. But my heart was pliable to this after grace.
So... i too wanted to know who what where and when.
I had to find out for myself because i was being pulled to do so. God gives the grace to seek in the right direction...and my signature has Matthew 7; 7
[Luke 11 is good too]
Ask and you shall recieve.
See, everytime i want an answer, i ask. Then somehow i run across the answer, sometimes by chance. But it always works.
Faith in the Lord is the start and only the start...following where He leads is the beginning of removing self and desiring Him.
We must not be afraid to be humble and hopeful. The more humility we possess the more He will give us. Letting go of ourselves and giving over to total and complete obedience and trust is a new world [for me]
Altho i still struggle with pride, and when i ask the Lord to help me...o He does. Not the way I prefer, but He does.
He lets me struggle on my own when i feel puffed up... to which frightens me. I dont always 'feel' His presense, but i trust He is there.
We dont need to 'feel' Him so long as we have faith that means He is there because faith is His alone to give.
I fell into darkness months back...literally frightened because of the doubts that over shadowed me. Doubts stemming from pride, i know. It was after praying about my pride that I discovered He was teaching me that no man on earth can claim Grace as their own by their own power.
I prayed the prayer i gave you...and suddenly faith returned and fear and doubt disappeared.
Maybe just any prayer that comes to your heart will help you. But doing it with humility and true seeking is the only way to 'see'.
We must persevere until the end... and it is not always easy when we think highly of ourselves. This post makes me feel arrogant. :o
So instead dont look at me, or what i have received, look to God and know...you already do have a glimmer of faith. Now you must pray with your heart. Because God wants your heart more than your intellect.
It is thru your heart that can soften to Him, that He will give and give. Because He loves you.