Wow, not believing i'm gonna share this.... 
I've nnot been raised with faith: I remember once asking my grandma what the difference was between katholics and protestants. She katholic and she didn't give me a satisfying awnser.
As a child I was sexually abused and those who did that to me, made me think I was evil. They used to tell me they were the devil and that I was like them.
A few months ago, when my mother died she asked a cross on her forehead from her mother. I was touched by that, since my mom had sworn off faith as a teen. She went in peace, blessed by her mother to go to Him.
For years I've been searching, I even interested in wicca ~~ ohoh. I was always attracted to christian faith but what the abusers had said to me made me think I wasn't worth it. Second I figured that if God would exist, the devil must too and that freaked me out. I got triggered time after time but I didn't give up.
I was touched by Him a few months ago. I felt how God helt me and kept me safe. I not only became a christian in word or interest but also in faith and emotion~ I took one of the biggest steps in the world. I emailed a local baptist church and asked if someone could help me.
So~~ she's now a friend. She took me to church and it felt like I came home.
I'm still struggling with DID, borderline, fears and traumaafteraffects~ but Jesus loves ME, ALL of me! Each part of me is welcome: the littles alters, the angry and scared... In Him we are One.
Christ made me whole in the way that each part of me is welcome and love, I'm / we are more starting to realise and believe we're not evil, no matter what they told us. I'm not bad, they told me to brainwash me. To speak themselves free; they were evil and not me.
It's scary to share this. Since in the past people have divined scared alters as demons well THEY ARE NOT: ALTERS/ parts/ all of me is a pearl in Gods hand and with His love I will grow and heal.
AMEN
I hope that by sharing this I can encourage people to become a christian and heal in Jesus love. Because I realise I survived this with a reason, I'm healing with a reason: to help others like me.
I've nnot been raised with faith: I remember once asking my grandma what the difference was between katholics and protestants. She katholic and she didn't give me a satisfying awnser.As a child I was sexually abused and those who did that to me, made me think I was evil. They used to tell me they were the devil and that I was like them.
A few months ago, when my mother died she asked a cross on her forehead from her mother. I was touched by that, since my mom had sworn off faith as a teen. She went in peace, blessed by her mother to go to Him.
For years I've been searching, I even interested in wicca ~~ ohoh. I was always attracted to christian faith but what the abusers had said to me made me think I wasn't worth it. Second I figured that if God would exist, the devil must too and that freaked me out. I got triggered time after time but I didn't give up.
I was touched by Him a few months ago. I felt how God helt me and kept me safe. I not only became a christian in word or interest but also in faith and emotion~ I took one of the biggest steps in the world. I emailed a local baptist church and asked if someone could help me.
So~~ she's now a friend. She took me to church and it felt like I came home.
I'm still struggling with DID, borderline, fears and traumaafteraffects~ but Jesus loves ME, ALL of me! Each part of me is welcome: the littles alters, the angry and scared... In Him we are One.
Christ made me whole in the way that each part of me is welcome and love, I'm / we are more starting to realise and believe we're not evil, no matter what they told us. I'm not bad, they told me to brainwash me. To speak themselves free; they were evil and not me.
It's scary to share this. Since in the past people have divined scared alters as demons well THEY ARE NOT: ALTERS/ parts/ all of me is a pearl in Gods hand and with His love I will grow and heal.
AMEN
I hope that by sharing this I can encourage people to become a christian and heal in Jesus love. Because I realise I survived this with a reason, I'm healing with a reason: to help others like me.
