I know it sucks to see everyone move on, everyone else happy now.
You've helped them and did your part, ..... Its okay...you have to focus on you now.
Though your first 25 years were pretty rough....despite your anxiety worsening.... There's still alot of life left to live. You're only 25...
You have to keep going. ******,*****and ***** did. ( the stars are names of friends)
******would smoke, cry at night , and even stood on a ledge because she was in emotional pain...her mom could hear her in her room... But she made damn sure to go to work.
As suicidal as ***** was ....he always did what he needed to do.
And *****, he kept going... Despite being stabbed,being homeschooled and out of touch with the world because of it and attempting suicide multiple times..... He's got a job and he's going to college...at 17... He's turning his life around.
You can too. You have to keep going because the world will.....with or without you...
Life will always present a challenge, stop blaming God ....because you need Him to overcome these challenges....life is life....it gets hard and sometimes it gets harder. Everyone is playing life at a different level, some easy others medium some hard.
Never be mad you went through more than the average person,just means you have more character than they ever will and it makes you more interesting then them. Honestly. People who skate through life don't know how to improvise...
They don't know how to hang on when they feel they're being pushed out of this world by internal or external conflicts.
Alopecia will be okay....when it all goes, the hats and scarves are cute ....And, you can put cute pins & brooches on them and jazz yourself up.
Always look on the bright side...because nothing lasts forever...
Remember heaven because that's when all ends will meet and everything will make sense...and sticking around / not killing yourself will be worth it.
Everything is always okay in the end... You know you've won when your not bitter and can still smile through out your oppositions and help people.
Your doing a good job carrying your cross. Everything will be okay in the end <3
Ill always be grateful for the people I met online, they are truly characters..meaning amazing people that alot have looked over...like me they don't have friends either but they're quality people and have the heart of a lion and an eye of a tiger. They're great people I would have never met in real life and honestly were much better then the crappy people I did meet in real time.
I wish I could stay in touch with them but, I just don't feel good ...with my anxiety flaring and all...and they'll get bored because my life seems stagnant right now.... My greatest fear is people leaving me right when I invest everything in them...so maybe its best this way but ill never forget.... And I thank them...bc even though i was there for them... Who knows if I really would have survived living in a hotel for 3 years with no friends ...all on top of my family and then being abused by an idiot pastor.
Who knows...
So I'm sure they saved my life as much as I saved theirs
I think I'm gonna take a break from CF so you guys won't have to get the brunt of my frustration...ill probably check in on my threads but ....
I think I'm gonna go, for a while.
Later.
You've helped them and did your part, ..... Its okay...you have to focus on you now.
Though your first 25 years were pretty rough....despite your anxiety worsening.... There's still alot of life left to live. You're only 25...
You have to keep going. ******,*****and ***** did. ( the stars are names of friends)
******would smoke, cry at night , and even stood on a ledge because she was in emotional pain...her mom could hear her in her room... But she made damn sure to go to work.
As suicidal as ***** was ....he always did what he needed to do.
And *****, he kept going... Despite being stabbed,being homeschooled and out of touch with the world because of it and attempting suicide multiple times..... He's got a job and he's going to college...at 17... He's turning his life around.
You can too. You have to keep going because the world will.....with or without you...
Life will always present a challenge, stop blaming God ....because you need Him to overcome these challenges....life is life....it gets hard and sometimes it gets harder. Everyone is playing life at a different level, some easy others medium some hard.
Never be mad you went through more than the average person,just means you have more character than they ever will and it makes you more interesting then them. Honestly. People who skate through life don't know how to improvise...
They don't know how to hang on when they feel they're being pushed out of this world by internal or external conflicts.
Alopecia will be okay....when it all goes, the hats and scarves are cute ....And, you can put cute pins & brooches on them and jazz yourself up.
Always look on the bright side...because nothing lasts forever...
Remember heaven because that's when all ends will meet and everything will make sense...and sticking around / not killing yourself will be worth it.
Everything is always okay in the end... You know you've won when your not bitter and can still smile through out your oppositions and help people.
Your doing a good job carrying your cross. Everything will be okay in the end <3
Ill always be grateful for the people I met online, they are truly characters..meaning amazing people that alot have looked over...like me they don't have friends either but they're quality people and have the heart of a lion and an eye of a tiger. They're great people I would have never met in real life and honestly were much better then the crappy people I did meet in real time.
I wish I could stay in touch with them but, I just don't feel good ...with my anxiety flaring and all...and they'll get bored because my life seems stagnant right now.... My greatest fear is people leaving me right when I invest everything in them...so maybe its best this way but ill never forget.... And I thank them...bc even though i was there for them... Who knows if I really would have survived living in a hotel for 3 years with no friends ...all on top of my family and then being abused by an idiot pastor.
Who knows...
So I'm sure they saved my life as much as I saved theirs
I think I'm gonna take a break from CF so you guys won't have to get the brunt of my frustration...ill probably check in on my threads but ....
I think I'm gonna go, for a while.
Later.