Doesn't that emoji look like a Yaris? Lol
Anywho, I was feeling so down the latter part of my day because something happened( which I don't have the patience to write) that sort have made me spiral into sadness.
It reminded me of my current state, dependent and well...dependent. Honestly its hard to feel good about yourself when what gives one pride and joy come from outside sources..like having a successful job,degree,home,car,children and a spouse.
Take thos3 things away and I'm sure the strongest person would fall into a depression. I'm not saying it's impossible to find value without attachments to outside sources...
But even the kindest person with the heart of mother Teresa would be looked down upon like a loser if they were 35, never dated and still lived at home( this is nothing against anyone like this, I'm just describing the society we live in)
So on to the point of the blog... I wrote in my gratitude app( thank god I have it) 3 things that I was grateful for today...and of all the things...driving made smile the most.
One because I drove for hours and I'm getting better but mostly because when I'm driving...I feel like I'm in control and that life just isn't happening to me...or passing me by...
When I'm driving , idk I don't feel a sense of helplessness but I feel empowered, I make the car go where ever *I* want it to go ...with me in it ,me being symbolic of my life, and I LOVE that feeling!
Needless to say, I can't wait till I get my license.
EDIT: I just realized the emoji isn't showing up lmaooo
Anywho, I was feeling so down the latter part of my day because something happened( which I don't have the patience to write) that sort have made me spiral into sadness.
It reminded me of my current state, dependent and well...dependent. Honestly its hard to feel good about yourself when what gives one pride and joy come from outside sources..like having a successful job,degree,home,car,children and a spouse.
Take thos3 things away and I'm sure the strongest person would fall into a depression. I'm not saying it's impossible to find value without attachments to outside sources...
But even the kindest person with the heart of mother Teresa would be looked down upon like a loser if they were 35, never dated and still lived at home( this is nothing against anyone like this, I'm just describing the society we live in)
So on to the point of the blog... I wrote in my gratitude app( thank god I have it) 3 things that I was grateful for today...and of all the things...driving made smile the most.
One because I drove for hours and I'm getting better but mostly because when I'm driving...I feel like I'm in control and that life just isn't happening to me...or passing me by...
When I'm driving , idk I don't feel a sense of helplessness but I feel empowered, I make the car go where ever *I* want it to go ...with me in it ,me being symbolic of my life, and I LOVE that feeling!
Needless to say, I can't wait till I get my license.
EDIT: I just realized the emoji isn't showing up lmaooo
