When a Christian wants to die... What's a girl to do?

There are a lot of us out there that just don't want to live anymore. This life has just become one big heartache and we are sick of it. We pray for God to end our suffering and every time we finish that prayer we think of Jesus in the garden the night he was arrested. We remember Jesus saying, "Not my will God, but yours." and we are encouraged that even in this overwhelming emotional agony, we are not alone, and Jesus does understand. We are reminded to hold on. To remain alive and that when we meet the Lord we will have acted faithfully. We look forward to the day we can enter into Heaven and see Jesus standing there with open arms waiting for us. To see the smile on his face that we didn't take our own lives. That we endured till the end. That death could not separate us from his love. I crave that moment when I can curl up in God's lap and take a nap in his arms like I used to on my dad's lap. The desire to be done with life cannot measure up to the desire to be with Him. So, I will wait until he says it's time to go home. I will wait until he still my beating heart and I am instantly transformed into an eternal being. I will wait for you Lord.