Haven't been writing anything here the past few days becuase I really haven't been moved about anything one way or the other (which might be a good thing).
Ok, I just remembered, that I have been bothered that I've been having such a hard time fasting. I keep telling myself that I want to fast, like for the debate/elections and other things- but it has been rough, ok very rough. Then on Sunday somthing strange happened, like this lust for food or something came over me. I'm not used to that. Sometimes for dinner I eat a big meal, but then I'm not hungry. This day I keep feeling this hunger, no matter what I ate. Like I was physically filled after dinner, but psychologically I still wanted to eat- even though I knew I wasn't really hungry. Too wierd..So I think it was some kind of demonic attack, since it's not something I usually go through. I wonder too if was symbolic, showing i have some kind of hunger in the spirit. Not that I feel that (emotionally), it's been pretty even mellow types days (without dipping into boredom).So I dunno
I mean I often have a rough time fasting, but only like I want to snack or something light.
So, I'm happy today that I'm going to make it through with only eating once (although I did want to do cold turkey). I tried yesterday, but I was getting bad headaches and trying to do a lot of work on the computer that required me to think.
If I go without eating that's usually the thing I have the hardest time with/reaction- I get lightheaded, have a hard time concentrating/focusing.
Was also wierd on Sun. avoided one friend (at church) which I really had been wanting to talk with, but then spent the day with someone else, after I though I didn't really feel like being around people that day. Must have been a God thing. Seems they needed our help.
Oh, I have been thinking (going back and forth) about if I wanna move back into one of our old neighborhoods. This would be to save some money on gas, since it would be closer for my spouse to their work. Of course we would have to pay a bit more- but I think we would come up a bit ahead anyway.And, we would probably get a bigger place. On the other hand there is the great hassle of moving, and all the kids stuff is in this area. Well I put it in God's hands, like if God really wants us to do that, He will open a door and make it clear.
Ok, I just remembered, that I have been bothered that I've been having such a hard time fasting. I keep telling myself that I want to fast, like for the debate/elections and other things- but it has been rough, ok very rough. Then on Sunday somthing strange happened, like this lust for food or something came over me. I'm not used to that. Sometimes for dinner I eat a big meal, but then I'm not hungry. This day I keep feeling this hunger, no matter what I ate. Like I was physically filled after dinner, but psychologically I still wanted to eat- even though I knew I wasn't really hungry. Too wierd..So I think it was some kind of demonic attack, since it's not something I usually go through. I wonder too if was symbolic, showing i have some kind of hunger in the spirit. Not that I feel that (emotionally), it's been pretty even mellow types days (without dipping into boredom).So I dunno
I mean I often have a rough time fasting, but only like I want to snack or something light.
So, I'm happy today that I'm going to make it through with only eating once (although I did want to do cold turkey). I tried yesterday, but I was getting bad headaches and trying to do a lot of work on the computer that required me to think.
If I go without eating that's usually the thing I have the hardest time with/reaction- I get lightheaded, have a hard time concentrating/focusing.
Was also wierd on Sun. avoided one friend (at church) which I really had been wanting to talk with, but then spent the day with someone else, after I though I didn't really feel like being around people that day. Must have been a God thing. Seems they needed our help.
Oh, I have been thinking (going back and forth) about if I wanna move back into one of our old neighborhoods. This would be to save some money on gas, since it would be closer for my spouse to their work. Of course we would have to pay a bit more- but I think we would come up a bit ahead anyway.And, we would probably get a bigger place. On the other hand there is the great hassle of moving, and all the kids stuff is in this area. Well I put it in God's hands, like if God really wants us to do that, He will open a door and make it clear.
