Something is happening, to me...
Something has hit me like a ton of bricks.
I haven't felt this way in awhile, my guts (emotionally\in the spirit) are twisting. So I'm trying to find out what this means.
Either God is up to something, or it's a distraction from the devil, or my flesh has some major problem.
I guess I hope it's the first lol. That would be good, but probably challanging...
All I can say is this- out of nowhere something hit me, I felt something very strongly. If it's from God, it means something. As often, it wouldn't make a lot of sense. I haven't talked to this person in yrs. I'm not sure if they even would remember me. They were a (the) girlfriend of this one ... frienemy of mine. And that person was a best friend of a friend of mine. lol thinking about how me and this other person did not get along for the longest time. It came about that this person turned out to be gay (last time I saw him was about 9 yrs. ago).
lol but we got along great when we were drunk. Then he seemed so nice and I was in love. However, when I was drunk I became one of those social drunks who then loved everybody. (and also usually sexual :o).
So he was with this gal for some time, oh and she also happened to be a best friend of one of my enemies...
But they ( as much as we did talk ) were nice to me, not really in a friendly way, but more like respectful decent. Lol I think we rarely saw each other other than drunk (or on the way to getting drunk).
I had really wanted to become her friend (for some unknown reason, because she wasn't my usual "type" she was quiet & reserved, kind of cold, kind of blah personality, and not much of a troublemaker or anything that stood out except for maybe physically). Funny I do remember voice: deep quiet & soft but very fast like she had an anixety problem or something...
Again maybe because I saw her a lot through my "drunk eyes"- which made her more interesting and me wanting to be more friendly.
So none of this makes sense. So yes, I did have interest to be her friend- but that was when she was around.. and then not even in a real continuous way.
So why i'd pick anything up now... doesn't make any sense, unless... it is God.
lol then if that is the case uh oh look out- it could mean anything....
Something has hit me like a ton of bricks.
I haven't felt this way in awhile, my guts (emotionally\in the spirit) are twisting. So I'm trying to find out what this means.
Either God is up to something, or it's a distraction from the devil, or my flesh has some major problem.
I guess I hope it's the first lol. That would be good, but probably challanging...
All I can say is this- out of nowhere something hit me, I felt something very strongly. If it's from God, it means something. As often, it wouldn't make a lot of sense. I haven't talked to this person in yrs. I'm not sure if they even would remember me. They were a (the) girlfriend of this one ... frienemy of mine. And that person was a best friend of a friend of mine. lol thinking about how me and this other person did not get along for the longest time. It came about that this person turned out to be gay (last time I saw him was about 9 yrs. ago).
lol but we got along great when we were drunk. Then he seemed so nice and I was in love. However, when I was drunk I became one of those social drunks who then loved everybody. (and also usually sexual :o).
So he was with this gal for some time, oh and she also happened to be a best friend of one of my enemies...
But they ( as much as we did talk ) were nice to me, not really in a friendly way, but more like respectful decent. Lol I think we rarely saw each other other than drunk (or on the way to getting drunk).
I had really wanted to become her friend (for some unknown reason, because she wasn't my usual "type" she was quiet & reserved, kind of cold, kind of blah personality, and not much of a troublemaker or anything that stood out except for maybe physically). Funny I do remember voice: deep quiet & soft but very fast like she had an anixety problem or something...
Again maybe because I saw her a lot through my "drunk eyes"- which made her more interesting and me wanting to be more friendly.
So none of this makes sense. So yes, I did have interest to be her friend- but that was when she was around.. and then not even in a real continuous way.
So why i'd pick anything up now... doesn't make any sense, unless... it is God.
lol then if that is the case uh oh look out- it could mean anything....
