***looking over this post again I see now it needed quite a bit of editing..too many typos 
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ok well the other vid I posted before was a bust. It's too bad someone did a hatchet job on the editing and worse that the one who promoted it didn't look into it better. I'm sure he's going to lose major credibility for this...too bad.
Doesn't change my points though- just replace this story with the one about journalists agreeing that if they can't come up with a good arguement just cry "rascism.
Anywaaay...
I don't and don't think I ever "mirrored people".
Yes I did/do conciously & or automatically know/find out what people like/want and try to give them that (if the situation calls for any depth of relationship)
But it's not like I try to be anything though, like some how I change who I am, appear, likes/dislikes/interests....
I'm me- like it or not. However it goes/ works out it becomes is about them...so maybe that can throw off & or put aside who I am...but it doesn't or rather i don't change that.
So I feel really strange, really blown over like wow... to hear so much someone echos my own thoughts, to write as a would write (- the cool lingo). I feel like that is so uncanny or (though hopefully not) that is occultic. Like I've been watching a lot of Dr. Who lately, so I've got referrences to throw in...so it's like what someone could read into my mind, scan it, scan my memories (lol like something one would see on Dr. Who- no I'm not having a "psychotic break" and turning "shizo" now)... for key things key phrases emotionally charged bits & pieces.
So how could it be so much like this: either yes we think a lot alike, something occultic is reading my mail, or maybe it could be some psycological mirroring thing (but since it's so new & on the mark- they must be very skilled at it).
So it's amazing but makes me wonder, and it's nerve wracking as well.
For me this is raw, this is so there. I mean it's one thing when I "hit the mark" that's very satisfying... but for someone to turn that on me...
Then on the other hand I though I like this I feel too vulnerable, too exposed...
Ok like this is just about my limit here, I feel like chat or something might be better.
Too in this format it's just too too... just there for whoever to see, to read....
I mean hey if this wasn't real I wouldn't care. If it were something going on that were more distant- not as connected....then it wouldn't be a big deal. But if this is as it seems and it's moving along and going to another level....
Then for me to feel at peace, to feel safe some of it has to more out of and away from the public forum.
Oh and I am concerned, that this is one way we are different...possibly maybe very so. They are more than willing to put it all out there. I'm not like that and don't do that.
The thought of like if various letters, notes, conversations if they were put out there like that...sorry no way, oh the horror.
So of course I don't mind going here, I just dont to want to continue on in this manner. Lord please continue to step in guide this, have mercy & favor on me. Thou knowest whats best and wise...
This is not a game. The more this goes on, the more real it's becoming to me. God don't let that stop- open my eyes, may I see, see in the spirit, see into eternity, into destiny, and be sober-minded. This is no game, no emo pleasure trip. God you want to do something for your glory, again. I may not understand all things but I know you're good, and I trust.
Yea, it's been awhile...
Hmm too I was thinking, if they do think similar to me, then it would make sense that it would take them awhile to trust me..we shall see.
****having to do with some else***
I do seriously wonder if & what's going on...of course if someone doesn't want to communicate, what's can I say?...
one of my old fave songs from when I was about 10...( and I had forgotten how much I had loved this bands music) the lead singer is a Christian now:
YouTube - Cold As Ice Lou Gramm 9 19 09
lol...the irony..."I aint got time to wait"...
but I'm the kind of person that saves pretty much everything...though I love the new, I still don't get rid of something because it's old- sometimes it even has more value, depends...
YouTube - Lou Gramm Band, Double Vision, 2/27/09 - LIVE
lol "take me to a place where nothing's wrong, thanks for coming- shut the door"...
***ok well the other vid I posted before was a bust. It's too bad someone did a hatchet job on the editing and worse that the one who promoted it didn't look into it better. I'm sure he's going to lose major credibility for this...too bad.
Doesn't change my points though- just replace this story with the one about journalists agreeing that if they can't come up with a good arguement just cry "rascism.
Anywaaay...
I don't and don't think I ever "mirrored people".
Yes I did/do conciously & or automatically know/find out what people like/want and try to give them that (if the situation calls for any depth of relationship)
But it's not like I try to be anything though, like some how I change who I am, appear, likes/dislikes/interests....
I'm me- like it or not. However it goes/ works out it becomes is about them...so maybe that can throw off & or put aside who I am...but it doesn't or rather i don't change that.
So I feel really strange, really blown over like wow... to hear so much someone echos my own thoughts, to write as a would write (- the cool lingo). I feel like that is so uncanny or (though hopefully not) that is occultic. Like I've been watching a lot of Dr. Who lately, so I've got referrences to throw in...so it's like what someone could read into my mind, scan it, scan my memories (lol like something one would see on Dr. Who- no I'm not having a "psychotic break" and turning "shizo" now)... for key things key phrases emotionally charged bits & pieces.
So how could it be so much like this: either yes we think a lot alike, something occultic is reading my mail, or maybe it could be some psycological mirroring thing (but since it's so new & on the mark- they must be very skilled at it).
So it's amazing but makes me wonder, and it's nerve wracking as well.
For me this is raw, this is so there. I mean it's one thing when I "hit the mark" that's very satisfying... but for someone to turn that on me...
Then on the other hand I though I like this I feel too vulnerable, too exposed...
Ok like this is just about my limit here, I feel like chat or something might be better.
Too in this format it's just too too... just there for whoever to see, to read....
I mean hey if this wasn't real I wouldn't care. If it were something going on that were more distant- not as connected....then it wouldn't be a big deal. But if this is as it seems and it's moving along and going to another level....
Then for me to feel at peace, to feel safe some of it has to more out of and away from the public forum.
Oh and I am concerned, that this is one way we are different...possibly maybe very so. They are more than willing to put it all out there. I'm not like that and don't do that.
The thought of like if various letters, notes, conversations if they were put out there like that...sorry no way, oh the horror.
So of course I don't mind going here, I just dont to want to continue on in this manner. Lord please continue to step in guide this, have mercy & favor on me. Thou knowest whats best and wise...
This is not a game. The more this goes on, the more real it's becoming to me. God don't let that stop- open my eyes, may I see, see in the spirit, see into eternity, into destiny, and be sober-minded. This is no game, no emo pleasure trip. God you want to do something for your glory, again. I may not understand all things but I know you're good, and I trust.
Yea, it's been awhile...
Hmm too I was thinking, if they do think similar to me, then it would make sense that it would take them awhile to trust me..we shall see.
****having to do with some else***
I do seriously wonder if & what's going on...of course if someone doesn't want to communicate, what's can I say?...
one of my old fave songs from when I was about 10...( and I had forgotten how much I had loved this bands music) the lead singer is a Christian now:
YouTube - Cold As Ice Lou Gramm 9 19 09
lol...the irony..."I aint got time to wait"...
but I'm the kind of person that saves pretty much everything...though I love the new, I still don't get rid of something because it's old- sometimes it even has more value, depends...
YouTube - Lou Gramm Band, Double Vision, 2/27/09 - LIVE
lol "take me to a place where nothing's wrong, thanks for coming- shut the door"...
