Well I got the job...so now I'm back to having 2 jobs now. I'm really excited after doing the math I know ill have more than enough to move out and pay for my insurance and other bills ....
I'm very proud of my work ethic and just happy with myself. And in very grateful to God for doing such a quick work... 2017 started everything off. In 2017 my family got out of the hotels, got into an apt, I got a job,got another and I got my car.
Now, in this new year Ill be moving on my own.
God has done such an amazing work on thr outside I'm amazed bc I never thought I would make it this far...I never thought this would ever happen... I know this may be normal for most... But for me this is defintely a mile stone.
Even despite all this, I'm ashamed that I still need more from God. God is very nice and I know he'll help me....because I prayed for this job and I prayed with church leaders last Sunday so I know God is working and he doesn't mind giving me what I need.
But I need a bit more... I hate being so needy..but i feel my life on the outside is okay I just need the inside fixed now.
Sometimes I wonder if its possible for everything to be perfect? Inner and outer life being perfect.... Is it? Is it possible to be a Christian without trials ? Is it a bad thing/sign to have everything you want...
Because I feel I have what I want...the only thing is that I'm not out of school yet and I would be content....
If I were to die now that would be okay. God has done enough for me and just enough in this year alone... Just Him doing this showed me God is able to bless beyond what I could ever conceive in my mind...
But I also womder why? Because In not perfect... I'm often so busy ..I don't pray much... Or read much... So I wonder why would God bless someone like me whose so busy that I dont spend time with him? Not on purpose but.. In human.
I think God is very nice and Ill do my best not to take advantage of God because God is more amazing and kind than I can imagine... Ive gotten more second chances than most ....and I feel God loves me because of that... I just feel grateful and wish I could repay God back.
Because I know he loves me.
I don't feel his presence or hear his voice ( most times)... But because of my life on the outside I know he hears me when I pray and I know he loves me..this knowing is intuitive
I just wish I could repay him back for everything. God is so sweet he defintely wants to give us the desires of our hearts...
I'm very proud of my work ethic and just happy with myself. And in very grateful to God for doing such a quick work... 2017 started everything off. In 2017 my family got out of the hotels, got into an apt, I got a job,got another and I got my car.
Now, in this new year Ill be moving on my own.
God has done such an amazing work on thr outside I'm amazed bc I never thought I would make it this far...I never thought this would ever happen... I know this may be normal for most... But for me this is defintely a mile stone.
Even despite all this, I'm ashamed that I still need more from God. God is very nice and I know he'll help me....because I prayed for this job and I prayed with church leaders last Sunday so I know God is working and he doesn't mind giving me what I need.
But I need a bit more... I hate being so needy..but i feel my life on the outside is okay I just need the inside fixed now.
Sometimes I wonder if its possible for everything to be perfect? Inner and outer life being perfect.... Is it? Is it possible to be a Christian without trials ? Is it a bad thing/sign to have everything you want...
Because I feel I have what I want...the only thing is that I'm not out of school yet and I would be content....
If I were to die now that would be okay. God has done enough for me and just enough in this year alone... Just Him doing this showed me God is able to bless beyond what I could ever conceive in my mind...
But I also womder why? Because In not perfect... I'm often so busy ..I don't pray much... Or read much... So I wonder why would God bless someone like me whose so busy that I dont spend time with him? Not on purpose but.. In human.
I think God is very nice and Ill do my best not to take advantage of God because God is more amazing and kind than I can imagine... Ive gotten more second chances than most ....and I feel God loves me because of that... I just feel grateful and wish I could repay God back.
Because I know he loves me.
I don't feel his presence or hear his voice ( most times)... But because of my life on the outside I know he hears me when I pray and I know he loves me..this knowing is intuitive
I just wish I could repay him back for everything. God is so sweet he defintely wants to give us the desires of our hearts...
