Well, with Gods help and a little push (from a friend-without them knowing it).
I did it...
"2 down 1 to go"
Sis A sure goes to bed early- it wasn't even 9:30 when I called ( my mother taught me not to call after 10-unless they say ahead of time it's OK, I listened to that one.)
Talked to R, it went surprisingly well. Actually I think this was the most peaceful & friendly conversation we've ever had. Maybe we were on our best behavior since it's been awhile. Too maybe it's because she's been going through some new stuff, and that's cooled off some of her "fire". She told me she just got married (oops I can't remember if it was this past June or last yr.)...in any case she's going through "it"...
crucification of the flesh and all that "good stuff".
At first she said she didn't want to get into it, but later she did. I didn't push anything.She just came out and shared stuff.
We seemed to have a good talk & about spiritual topics, seems she wants to go forward ( I guess after of a period where she feels she had been shut down). We got into different stuff, she was being very open & honest- without being defensive and seeming to look to contradict whatever I said. Yea, that's the major thing I always liked about her, she always manages to mention about doing outreach/preaching/sharing the gospel/being a witness...even when (like now for her) when she's not doing so great & not practicing it. I think it's good to talk about it anyway, to keep it in the front of your mind- remind yourself (if not others as well).
I guess we do have a bunch in common/our thinking. I could hear she had a list of shoulds- that she would like to be doing - be at. She's thinking of how she wants to be and how she should be (in all ways). She mentioned that she recently just got her GED and wants to do whatever it is to get her license back- so she doesn't have to be stuck.
I told her about the trip and at first she was interested until I mentioned about the bus ticket price & or her helping by driving...lost her there, but she didn't come out and say that. She came up with some other doubts of why she would rather go out to the Florida outpouring. Then (as it often does) it comes down to - I'll pray for you...
Ug, she was ready to jump...
Oh well, can't win 'em all.
Also I'm happy though I mentioned about the women’s meeting and she said she'd like to go (jumped at that). She said she would have her hubby's car- uh but then I was like I thought you couldn't drive...
She skirted around that, and I was like I don't want to encourage you to do something wrong. She was like she really needed to go to a meeting like this. Did I put my foot in my mouth or what?
I don't want her to do something wrong, but I do want her to go. Maybe if I get to talk to M she can give us all a ride- but will she...will she think that's too uncomfortable an idea? I bet A would but I don't want to put her out, I already left a message saying I was going to go on the bus.
So Lord, bring this all together somehow...
I'm sure she would like it there, that R would feel comfortable & motivated. She says she's going to a church right now but it's small and not like feeding her/stirring her up (whatever term).
I wish I had called M as well, but it got too late (though she might not have minded if she's not working) still..
Tomorrows another day.
Personally, I've been feeling very high strung the past few days. Busy, lot's going on. Mind thinking lots, energy, being social (I was talking to people at church, and on the bus & the hubby wanted me to meet some unknown co-worker and & said OK), writing lots...working on my music.
Ha,
I know this could sound manic or something, but it's not. I mean I'm up, but not flying off the charts.
I'm not like spending all our money or throwing stuff out the window (something a friend of ours does) or something.
I realized I did do something odd though. I had been eating less the past few days (which is good) lost a pound or 2. Then I had the desire & ability to fast (like not hungry). Yet I found myself putting food in my mouth even though I wasn't hungry. Not tons of food, but still. I threw a stupid muffin in my mouth for no reason. It was like 210 cal.
It was like a nervous thing, like biting the nails. Burning more energy , I got to keep putting the excess energy in the right/productive places.
Hey, I should take advantage of times like these. The last time I felt this way and was fasting (truly an anointing that time) I lost 6-7 lbs- that I couldn’t lose for the life of me before.
Anyway so far this spurt is being used for good, and to get more done.
I'm really annoyed about the thing with the trip. I'll go on the bus if I have to, but that's not the way I planned & hoped to go about it!:o
I did it...
"2 down 1 to go"
Sis A sure goes to bed early- it wasn't even 9:30 when I called ( my mother taught me not to call after 10-unless they say ahead of time it's OK, I listened to that one.)
Talked to R, it went surprisingly well. Actually I think this was the most peaceful & friendly conversation we've ever had. Maybe we were on our best behavior since it's been awhile. Too maybe it's because she's been going through some new stuff, and that's cooled off some of her "fire". She told me she just got married (oops I can't remember if it was this past June or last yr.)...in any case she's going through "it"...
crucification of the flesh and all that "good stuff".
At first she said she didn't want to get into it, but later she did. I didn't push anything.She just came out and shared stuff.
We seemed to have a good talk & about spiritual topics, seems she wants to go forward ( I guess after of a period where she feels she had been shut down). We got into different stuff, she was being very open & honest- without being defensive and seeming to look to contradict whatever I said. Yea, that's the major thing I always liked about her, she always manages to mention about doing outreach/preaching/sharing the gospel/being a witness...even when (like now for her) when she's not doing so great & not practicing it. I think it's good to talk about it anyway, to keep it in the front of your mind- remind yourself (if not others as well).
I guess we do have a bunch in common/our thinking. I could hear she had a list of shoulds- that she would like to be doing - be at. She's thinking of how she wants to be and how she should be (in all ways). She mentioned that she recently just got her GED and wants to do whatever it is to get her license back- so she doesn't have to be stuck.
I told her about the trip and at first she was interested until I mentioned about the bus ticket price & or her helping by driving...lost her there, but she didn't come out and say that. She came up with some other doubts of why she would rather go out to the Florida outpouring. Then (as it often does) it comes down to - I'll pray for you...
Ug, she was ready to jump...
Oh well, can't win 'em all.
Also I'm happy though I mentioned about the women’s meeting and she said she'd like to go (jumped at that). She said she would have her hubby's car- uh but then I was like I thought you couldn't drive...
She skirted around that, and I was like I don't want to encourage you to do something wrong. She was like she really needed to go to a meeting like this. Did I put my foot in my mouth or what?
I don't want her to do something wrong, but I do want her to go. Maybe if I get to talk to M she can give us all a ride- but will she...will she think that's too uncomfortable an idea? I bet A would but I don't want to put her out, I already left a message saying I was going to go on the bus.
So Lord, bring this all together somehow...
I'm sure she would like it there, that R would feel comfortable & motivated. She says she's going to a church right now but it's small and not like feeding her/stirring her up (whatever term).
I wish I had called M as well, but it got too late (though she might not have minded if she's not working) still..
Tomorrows another day.
Personally, I've been feeling very high strung the past few days. Busy, lot's going on. Mind thinking lots, energy, being social (I was talking to people at church, and on the bus & the hubby wanted me to meet some unknown co-worker and & said OK), writing lots...working on my music.
Ha,
I know this could sound manic or something, but it's not. I mean I'm up, but not flying off the charts.I'm not like spending all our money or throwing stuff out the window (something a friend of ours does) or something.
I realized I did do something odd though. I had been eating less the past few days (which is good) lost a pound or 2. Then I had the desire & ability to fast (like not hungry). Yet I found myself putting food in my mouth even though I wasn't hungry. Not tons of food, but still. I threw a stupid muffin in my mouth for no reason. It was like 210 cal.
It was like a nervous thing, like biting the nails. Burning more energy , I got to keep putting the excess energy in the right/productive places.
Hey, I should take advantage of times like these. The last time I felt this way and was fasting (truly an anointing that time) I lost 6-7 lbs- that I couldn’t lose for the life of me before.
Anyway so far this spurt is being used for good, and to get more done.
I'm really annoyed about the thing with the trip. I'll go on the bus if I have to, but that's not the way I planned & hoped to go about it!:o
