Well well so I guess I’m not so blah now, have a lot to think about. I think that’s it, if anything: HPD…
They had even said, talking about dealing w their issues- they ignore them (whatever they mean by tha0. Sounds pretty typical HP. I was looking over some info looking into hpd again. I can’t figure out what subtype I was- I think none specifically but more a combo of 3: the A T & I. My guess for them would be the T. My other old friend, I think they may have had the V & the Th versions hopefully not the D.
As for the ASPD think I may have been of the R-D & the N versions… when I was younger a combo of the R-T and the M versions.
Ha I read something that really hit me, it said that those with HPD are extremely reactive. That’s it! I haven’t been really a “moody” type person, but that’s what it is- reactiveness. And that wasn’t one of my symptoms ”being easily influenced”. I see know- no not in thought, However, I have been easily influenced emotionally. It’s not even so much “circumstances” ( as I saw it written) but like by others emotional states, by their attitudes , their responses. Yes, I have been , I often hate that.
Yes I see it now, ug it’s like I have said ( or thought) to others “can’t you think for yourself?”
Wow this is like not being able to think for myself but in an emotional way. I think my “natural state of being or mood is generally optimistic, enthusiastic, easy going (or irritated) but that’s about it.
But being so reactive, that can switch back and forth quickly depending on who I’m around and what they’re saying (and maybe doing). Unfortunately often what one says to me can move me one way or another emotionally. So ahah that’s it, I may appear moody, but that’s not accurate. If left to myself & my non relational interests, I’m not. It’s just when it comes to people I’m so reactive and emotionally influenced- so I may appear moody. My thoughts, beliefs, interests & identity don’t change much or quickly but my emotional state can.
Definitely not how like they say Bi-polar- but more like ½ hour to half hour. I don’t like to stay bothered for long. So I try to fight against my emotions over how other people respond to me- try not to let that ruin my day or my enjoyment of life. I do try to absorb it when I’m sad- face it briefly think about it and then pray about it and give it over to God. My anger isn’t brooding or seething, just more reactive & sometimes explosive. It usually comes quickly and then dies out quickly. Loneliness, I either obsess over it for awhile or just ignore it and give it to God. Emotional pain is just that, I agonize, maybe have a short pity party and then again pray & give it over to God.
They had even said, talking about dealing w their issues- they ignore them (whatever they mean by tha0. Sounds pretty typical HP. I was looking over some info looking into hpd again. I can’t figure out what subtype I was- I think none specifically but more a combo of 3: the A T & I. My guess for them would be the T. My other old friend, I think they may have had the V & the Th versions hopefully not the D.
As for the ASPD think I may have been of the R-D & the N versions… when I was younger a combo of the R-T and the M versions.
Ha I read something that really hit me, it said that those with HPD are extremely reactive. That’s it! I haven’t been really a “moody” type person, but that’s what it is- reactiveness. And that wasn’t one of my symptoms ”being easily influenced”. I see know- no not in thought, However, I have been easily influenced emotionally. It’s not even so much “circumstances” ( as I saw it written) but like by others emotional states, by their attitudes , their responses. Yes, I have been , I often hate that.
Yes I see it now, ug it’s like I have said ( or thought) to others “can’t you think for yourself?”
Wow this is like not being able to think for myself but in an emotional way. I think my “natural state of being or mood is generally optimistic, enthusiastic, easy going (or irritated) but that’s about it.
But being so reactive, that can switch back and forth quickly depending on who I’m around and what they’re saying (and maybe doing). Unfortunately often what one says to me can move me one way or another emotionally. So ahah that’s it, I may appear moody, but that’s not accurate. If left to myself & my non relational interests, I’m not. It’s just when it comes to people I’m so reactive and emotionally influenced- so I may appear moody. My thoughts, beliefs, interests & identity don’t change much or quickly but my emotional state can.
Definitely not how like they say Bi-polar- but more like ½ hour to half hour. I don’t like to stay bothered for long. So I try to fight against my emotions over how other people respond to me- try not to let that ruin my day or my enjoyment of life. I do try to absorb it when I’m sad- face it briefly think about it and then pray about it and give it over to God. My anger isn’t brooding or seething, just more reactive & sometimes explosive. It usually comes quickly and then dies out quickly. Loneliness, I either obsess over it for awhile or just ignore it and give it to God. Emotional pain is just that, I agonize, maybe have a short pity party and then again pray & give it over to God.
