Siblings On Pedestals

I worshipped my older brothers when I was young. They could do no wrong. When they ridiculed me or found fault, I used to be devastated. It still hurts for me to think about it now. One would laugh at my lack of ability fix bicycles, another because I didn't tackle hard enough in rugby and another because I would be too indecisive.
As I got older I gradually realised, they were just venting their inadequacies, their own issues. I was a scapegoat. They will see faults in me even now, but I don't really care any more. Their faults are quite clear to me now anyway. One is barely literate, another is an arrogant, lightweight intellectual, narrow-minded bully and another is a self-absorbed introvert. that's at their worst. of course from a secular pov, they've done well in life. Two of them are clearly successful. The introvert has health issues now and seems to suffer depression.
It is dangerous to put people on pedestals because you give them power to hurt you. Once you see how tiny they are in the scheme of things, they cant hurt you at all. Oh I mean, yes we are all precious in God's eyes, but their worldly success is rather ho hum
Also I think they didn't really understand how sensitive I was. What an inner world I had.maybe my introvert understands mke better now because I am a little bit like him anyway.