Haven't posted to my blog in a while. I feel like leaving everything and running away....of coarse come back again but I feel so agitated and restless and I just want to run go away far away.
I really want to paint my house but it always turns out yuck everything is so out of order, there is no order here I feel over whelmed like I want to do something huge and can't seem to get it. Everything seems so caved in but instead of darkness there is this irrotating light. I just want to explode into a million peices I wish I could be everywhere at one time and yet no where at all, I want this maddness to end. Im really tired and all I want to do is sleep but all my family wants to do is go here go there noise is all around and the thought of the intolerable noise makes me want to be angry. I really hope these out of control feelings that Im really trying hard to extinquish goes away soon. Thats all I have for now
I really want to paint my house but it always turns out yuck everything is so out of order, there is no order here I feel over whelmed like I want to do something huge and can't seem to get it. Everything seems so caved in but instead of darkness there is this irrotating light. I just want to explode into a million peices I wish I could be everywhere at one time and yet no where at all, I want this maddness to end. Im really tired and all I want to do is sleep but all my family wants to do is go here go there noise is all around and the thought of the intolerable noise makes me want to be angry. I really hope these out of control feelings that Im really trying hard to extinquish goes away soon. Thats all I have for now
