Recurring Dreams

For some reason I keep seeing my aunt in my dreams, even when I don't think about her...I don't know why...I also dreamt abt other things.

I have difficulty telling,whether God may trying to be telling,me something vs. A dream being simply a dream...

I mean I know not every dream means something...

I just wish I could stop seeing my aunt in my dreams.

Anywho, my friend does text every now and then... And im standing firm on my decision to not talk to him.

In honestly ready to give everything up. All the friends I made online, just let them go....they're all in good spaces in there lives and don't need me anymore.... Plus I think I need to focus on me. I always tried to hold on to them bc, when good things happened to them and I'm still stuck while they're moving forward... I tried to actively overcome jealousy by being there to celebrate their successes...

And I feel I've done that.

I think now its time to just focus on me and God perhaps...

I'd like to hang on to one friend because she's been so good to me....but I'm even willing to give her up...as well as the guy that's interest3d in me...
( though I told him I'd always be there for him.. I feel bad for saying that now)

I just think I need to be alone.