So I really believe that Im a prayer worrier. I didn't believe it at first then one day someone said you really are a prayer worrier and I laughed at them. I can not even remember the last time God answered one of my prayers. In fact I remember laying on my bed crying and asking God what was wrong with me and why he never heard or answered my prayers, I asked if I wasn't praying right or hard enough ect. No answer. So when this person said this all I thought was yeah right me are you kidding. Well it didn't end there, all week there it was every where I turned some one would say something to me about being a prayer worrier, so that was conformation to me that God has mad me a prayer worrier.
Well last night I was at prayer meeting and all of a sudden I couldn't pray, it was like I had forgotten no words would come out all I could do was laugh with embarassment. What kind of prayer worrier can't or foregets how to pray? I feel so dumb and sheepish right now. Its almost like when you work hard all the way through school to be a straight A student and one day your senior year you get your first D. How crushed and udderly frustrated you feel (if you have been there than you can relate I hope) that is exactly how I feel completly frustrated like I just let God down I don't know how else to discribe it other than I'm completly disgusted with myself.
Well last night I was at prayer meeting and all of a sudden I couldn't pray, it was like I had forgotten no words would come out all I could do was laugh with embarassment. What kind of prayer worrier can't or foregets how to pray? I feel so dumb and sheepish right now. Its almost like when you work hard all the way through school to be a straight A student and one day your senior year you get your first D. How crushed and udderly frustrated you feel (if you have been there than you can relate I hope) that is exactly how I feel completly frustrated like I just let God down I don't know how else to discribe it other than I'm completly disgusted with myself.
