... I feel as a Christian I know how to battle spiritually, I'm more than prepared...but I'm still anxious.
I have anxiety..pretty bad, I experience chronic night mares, from time to time..not always though..thank goodness...and I have pure O ( which basically means, my mind is a record player for bad events)
And I keep thinking what if I do or say something wrong? Its one of the things that's held me back from pursing God...but I'm always so interested in him and his word..i just get sucked back in.. But I keep fearing that my mental state is hanging by a thread and if I immerse myself fully in God..i would come under attack and take the one step over that I cant take back and it'll send me down the rabbit hole lol...but whether we want to get involved or note...we are all under the enemy's attacks. Whether yours saved or unsaved...fighting or not, prepared or unprepared we are all in battle..
Yesterday night, I saw an FB video my friend sent me that scientifically explained God's existence. I already know he's real, the video was just nice to watch... But what really caught my eye was the portion where they did an experiment with rice and snowflakes.
They had two sets, they spoke positively over one set of rice and snowflakes and the rice looked better than its comparison and so did the snowflake. " Kill yourself", " I hate you " where some of the words spoken over the others and the rice molded and snowflakes looked broken....that really brought home the reality that life and death are indeed in your tongue.
You can speak life , and based on that experience, it will happen.
I really want to be all I with God, I cant have fear nipping on my heels trying to keep my back, I need to do my own fighting and pray for myself more and just do it..
Because I can.
* Another reminder for myself.
Here's the link to the rice experiment
http://organicuprising.com/the-rice-experiment/
I have anxiety..pretty bad, I experience chronic night mares, from time to time..not always though..thank goodness...and I have pure O ( which basically means, my mind is a record player for bad events)
And I keep thinking what if I do or say something wrong? Its one of the things that's held me back from pursing God...but I'm always so interested in him and his word..i just get sucked back in.. But I keep fearing that my mental state is hanging by a thread and if I immerse myself fully in God..i would come under attack and take the one step over that I cant take back and it'll send me down the rabbit hole lol...but whether we want to get involved or note...we are all under the enemy's attacks. Whether yours saved or unsaved...fighting or not, prepared or unprepared we are all in battle..
Yesterday night, I saw an FB video my friend sent me that scientifically explained God's existence. I already know he's real, the video was just nice to watch... But what really caught my eye was the portion where they did an experiment with rice and snowflakes.
They had two sets, they spoke positively over one set of rice and snowflakes and the rice looked better than its comparison and so did the snowflake. " Kill yourself", " I hate you " where some of the words spoken over the others and the rice molded and snowflakes looked broken....that really brought home the reality that life and death are indeed in your tongue.
You can speak life , and based on that experience, it will happen.
I really want to be all I with God, I cant have fear nipping on my heels trying to keep my back, I need to do my own fighting and pray for myself more and just do it..
Because I can.
* Another reminder for myself.
Here's the link to the rice experiment
http://organicuprising.com/the-rice-experiment/