November 8th

Not doing good. Feel like God hates me. Terrible things are going to happen to me. I thought that it was all about my grades. I thought I was going to go to hell because of my grades. Now I know I'm going to hell because I'm an awful person. God hates the wicked and I'm wicked. Anyway, goodnight. I really hate myself. I hear the devil's voice in my head all day long. He is laughing at my constantly. He keeps saying "Dear Lord have mercy!" over and over again. He keeps saying, "Into your coffin!" I know I'm going to be buried alive forever. The devil has been laughing at me my whole life. I heard the devil's voice in my head when I was a kid, laughing at me. He told me about things I would do in the future. The devil's voice keeps telling me that I'm already in a coffin. He says he is from the future and he knows that I will be in a coffin for eternity. I believe it, too. I really think I'm awful. I try to do good deeds, but it doesn't take away from the bad things I've done. There's nothing I can do to be saved. I've been going to church, but it doesn't help. All day long I hear the devil in my head laughing at me. When I wake up, he is laughing. When I go to sleep, he is laughing.