It started out my step mom getting fired from the job (we both worked at the same place). Then she went to her stamping class and never returned, no phone call no nothing.
She might have been a step mom, but she was the only one out of the other two who was actually a mom to us. Well, last Sunday she sent her dad down to my dads house to gather up her belongings. They are getting a devorce and the only one she will have any contact with is my younger sister. It was all so out of the blue. So I have been struggling with that.
Then Im having an issue with things in our church. I know that no church is perfect and never will be, but doesn't mean that after all these years of not saying anything (because I feel selfish when I do) I still don't feel hurt. I feel like they use me only when its convienint for them. They say that They really need me that Im important, but they continually push me asside.
For instance I have been going to Youth Convention for 11 years and shaperoning it for the last 7 (missed one because I was having my dd). Well this year they had two highschool seniors as shaperones, never even bothered asking me (and yes they know that I have been doing it all these years because they too before becomming leaders have been there everytime with me.)
Then I have been doing the sound systems for our church for the last 15 years and all of a sudden they shove me aside and put (we will call him MrS) in there, he grew up in the church but hasn't gone in years, and still only goes if and when he wants. I have been faithful to go everysunday and they just shove me out.
And the last thing Im going to bring up is that our church had a pie auction to raise money for Speed The Light, I spent days trying to bake stuff, little pies and muffins and breads. I have never learned to cook so it takes me a few tries to get it right. I put a lot of time and effort into it, and when the pie auction was over I asked how it went(I couldn't stay) they said not so well, didn't even make 1/2 of what they did last year, well when I went to the flood there sat everything that I had baked they took it all out and never auctioned it off. Well I thought enough is enough. I have asked if I could take the little kids class because there wasn't one, and every wed. night they announce how know one ever steps up and JT has 3 classes to take on and how that isn't fair to him, only they forget that time and time again I go to them and say that I really want the little kids. Guess Im not good enough for them so Sunday I decided that Im NOT doing power point for worship.
MrS knows how so I told his dad that MRS is doing power point. He told me no he isn't, I said yes he is because he knows how and Im not doing it this sunday.( I never really wanted to do it, but the lady whom started it decided she wanted to play guitar instead and stuck me with it. I just took it because I saw a need I guess). He said well then I guess they wont have power point this sunday (guilt trip?????) I said guess not and walked away. Im tired of being used! Well low and behold when he got tired of waiting for me to feel bad and come back and I didn't, he suck MrS in there to do it. I might have been in the wrong, but Im tired of keeping my mouth shut and being their door mat so I just simply told them no for once. Well guess we will see what happens next....
She might have been a step mom, but she was the only one out of the other two who was actually a mom to us. Well, last Sunday she sent her dad down to my dads house to gather up her belongings. They are getting a devorce and the only one she will have any contact with is my younger sister. It was all so out of the blue. So I have been struggling with that.
Then Im having an issue with things in our church. I know that no church is perfect and never will be, but doesn't mean that after all these years of not saying anything (because I feel selfish when I do) I still don't feel hurt. I feel like they use me only when its convienint for them. They say that They really need me that Im important, but they continually push me asside.
For instance I have been going to Youth Convention for 11 years and shaperoning it for the last 7 (missed one because I was having my dd). Well this year they had two highschool seniors as shaperones, never even bothered asking me (and yes they know that I have been doing it all these years because they too before becomming leaders have been there everytime with me.)
Then I have been doing the sound systems for our church for the last 15 years and all of a sudden they shove me aside and put (we will call him MrS) in there, he grew up in the church but hasn't gone in years, and still only goes if and when he wants. I have been faithful to go everysunday and they just shove me out.
And the last thing Im going to bring up is that our church had a pie auction to raise money for Speed The Light, I spent days trying to bake stuff, little pies and muffins and breads. I have never learned to cook so it takes me a few tries to get it right. I put a lot of time and effort into it, and when the pie auction was over I asked how it went(I couldn't stay) they said not so well, didn't even make 1/2 of what they did last year, well when I went to the flood there sat everything that I had baked they took it all out and never auctioned it off. Well I thought enough is enough. I have asked if I could take the little kids class because there wasn't one, and every wed. night they announce how know one ever steps up and JT has 3 classes to take on and how that isn't fair to him, only they forget that time and time again I go to them and say that I really want the little kids. Guess Im not good enough for them so Sunday I decided that Im NOT doing power point for worship.
MrS knows how so I told his dad that MRS is doing power point. He told me no he isn't, I said yes he is because he knows how and Im not doing it this sunday.( I never really wanted to do it, but the lady whom started it decided she wanted to play guitar instead and stuck me with it. I just took it because I saw a need I guess). He said well then I guess they wont have power point this sunday (guilt trip?????) I said guess not and walked away. Im tired of being used! Well low and behold when he got tired of waiting for me to feel bad and come back and I didn't, he suck MrS in there to do it. I might have been in the wrong, but Im tired of keeping my mouth shut and being their door mat so I just simply told them no for once. Well guess we will see what happens next....
