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Identity

The well is dry.

Where there used to be a overabundance flowing of thoughts and dreams, there are no words to explain how I feel.

Have I gone numb? Or am I just expressionless?

Sometimes I feel like everybody is watching me. I used to believe that redemption and renewal would come in front of the one who tore me down but I don't know anymore. He continually is indulged and enabled while I'm just trying to find who I am again.

Every piece of who I used to be has been stolen and tainted. I don't even know who I am anymore.

I try to find myself but I feel in the process I am just losing myself even more.

The dreams and the promises are all gone in a smoke of the fire where they used to be a liar.

I have minimal to no faith. I don't pray. When asked how I view God. I say non-existent but I think the correct answer is apathetic.

I wanna be free from this but I don't know how to believe when for so long my believing has lead me to a loss of identity.

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