How i am feeling right now

You know i am going to be toatlly honset with you of how i feel.. Right now I always care about waht people think and it may not like seem like i do!! See I am a girl that pretends to be happy i am a girl that pretends that i am alright and nothings wrong BUT! There is something wrong.. Most of you might not know it. Most of you might not care to know! or might be curious! but,I deal with Anxiety I struggle with it everyday! My life is not a walk in the park! I am a mess up sometimes i feel like i am not good enough for anyone But there is Only a few people in this world that make me feel like ia m worth it. Like I am good enough! well no all the time i feel like im not good enough. Like no on e cares about me or no one wants me around!..

I know I may have issues I have get upset and I may over react to everything sometimes but let me tell you!! sometimes you have to be easy with me! I NEVER IN MY LIFE!! from my family or my friends had encouragement I NEVER IN MY LIFE! had my family help me!!

I was really close to my sister Rebecca at one point me and her dont even speak anymore!! it is sad to see a realtionship with your Siblings go down hill and I mean yes you go your sperate ways and have kids and a family but thats all fine and good but when you grew up with her and she was your best friend THOUGH EVERYTHING!! it can be tough the sad part is. How she doesn't want anything to do with me