I recently made a post about how I was feeling discouraged, but I honestly was just having a panic attack... and I was being ungrateful, and I apologize if I discouraged anyone. I don't glorify God like I should and God HAS done amazing things for me in the past 6 years, especially in the past year. For starters, I used to abuse drugs such as marijuana, alcohol, and prescription drugs but have been delivered of those addictions. I also was delivered of a 10+ year cigarette addiction instantly. I used to be very addicted to marijuana and I haven't smoked it in about 1-2 years now which is a miracle. In fact, the lady next door to me asked me if I smoked marijuana (she was probably about to ask me to smoke with her) and it didn't even cross my mind to say yes. I just politely said no. Ive had deep rooted issues from childhood healed like deep insecurities from my father and depression and anxiety dramatically improved. I've stopped cursing (expect for when I'm having a really bad panic attack) and I've even bore a little bit of fruit... I helped disciple a guy at a Christian rehab I went to 2 years ago and maybe a few other things God has done through me. I've been falling into sin over and over and over but God always gives me strength to get back up. I've met a few people on CF and just went on a road trip with a fellow member, and she casted out a bunch of spirits out of me and helped me to get healed of soul wounds from childhood. I still have a way to go but God has done a lot for me. For the first time ever I almost shared my testimony with someone at work the other night but something happened and I got distracted.
Right now I just need to focus on healing more and more from stuff in my past and letting my heart become softer. God removing the bands of wickedness from my soul is truly a miracle.
Right now I just need to focus on healing more and more from stuff in my past and letting my heart become softer. God removing the bands of wickedness from my soul is truly a miracle.
