Doubts About Getting Married

As a single, 22 year old man who desires to get married someday, I have only ever been in 1 relationship when I was 18 years old and that failed because she chose to give into depression and pushed me away and decided I was better off with someone else instead of her. Since my very first relationship ended, I've only ever been on one date with another Christian women and I thought we were going to hit things off, but she told me that she wasn't ready to date, and literally one month after she told me that she started getting to know this other guy who happened to swoop right in and now she is married to that same guy 1 year later. Which as a result of that happening I was not only hurt, but very bitter inside. I isolated myself from her since she lied to me, and she never even apologized to me about it.

I've tried dating sites and online dating is honestly a joke and isn't worth my time because when I try to talk to a Christian girl, I end up being left on read. I'll wait for hours, and days but yet sadly no response at all. In my small town that I'm in there isn't a whole lot of people that around my age that go to my church. I do see women who look my age, but I could definitely tell they are too young and in high school, and I'm not going to date someone who is in high school. Whenever, I do talk to a girl, I can immediately tell that I give off this boring vibe and that they lose interest in me very quickly even when I'm confident in my approach.Christian women can be just as bad as the women in the world who don't have Christ just based off their actions and the way they do things.It seems like over and over again I try and I keep failing again and again and I'm tired of waiting for the right person to come around. It sucks. I have yet to find someone who actually takes interest in me. It also doesn't help the fact that my parents especially my mom keeps pressuring me to go out and find someone when it isn't that easy to do at all because she hits me with the whole "when I was 22, I was already married to your dad." and I keep telling her over and over that the generation we are living in right now wants to make sure they have a career first before they settle down, and it's honestly very irritating.

It's very hard to be content with this whole thing because I'm of age to get married, and I want kids, but I don't know if it will ever happen because I feel like I have to change the way I interact with people just to get to know them and everything. I just don't know anymore since I'm not having any luck at all. I've been praying and asking God but He's silent and not answering me at all.
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