December 4th

Hi. I'm trying to be more faithful. I keep thinking that God hates me even though everyone tells me that God loves me. I'm not sure why I feel that way. I think I get depressed because I hear voices that bother me all the time. I have a hard time putting my faith in God and not in the voices. The voices constantly tell me what to do, and usually what they tell me isn't very good for me. They try to make it seem like what they say is the right thing to do, but I probably won't do what they say.

I want God to love me. Some of my worst sins were against my parents. I hope God forgives me. My parents still love me even though I sinned against them. They never bring up the things that I did. Most people think that I am crazy, so they excuse me for what I've done. I'm not sure everyone does though. I'm afraid of retribution from the people I've wronged.

I want to stop believing I'm going to hell. I've been listening to music and music helps drown out the voices. I had a good dinner and desert today. I'm having trouble with some of my homework. I hope I can figure things out.

Here is some music that I've been listening to. Please pray for me to do well with my homework.



It's Christmas time and I really enjoy celebrating Christmas with my family. I hope maybe I can stop believing I'm going to hell this Christmas.