James 5:16 says "Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective."
So here I am, confessing my sins.
This week has brought out the worst in me again. I've been under a lot of emotional stress lately and this week, I finally snapped. Before I came to Christ, I used a lot of unhealthy and obviously sinful coping mechanisms. Unfortunately, this week, I returned to some of those.
I have lied, taken sexually promiscuous photos of myself and engaged in other sexual behaviors this week that put me to shame. I feel immensely guilty for all of this and I can't help but wonder "what was I thinking?" Why didn't I just turn to God? Why did I just lean on Him and ask Him to help me through this? Why did I rely on myself for the comfort and peace only He can give?
Sometimes, we don't have any answer other than we are sinful creatures. And God knows this. It gives me great comfort to know that He doesn't expect me to be anything other than what I am. While that doesn't give me a ticket to sin freely, it does mean that he forgives me when I do stumble.
The Lord has recently revealed to me that I lack good judgement in some circumstances, and this is something I must work on. So, pray with me, my brothers and sisters. Pray for my healing and pray that I have wisdom enough to know when I'm treading in dangerous territory.
I have never understood the stigma around openly and freely confessing sins. We were not meant to walk this life alone. God bless you all.
So here I am, confessing my sins.
This week has brought out the worst in me again. I've been under a lot of emotional stress lately and this week, I finally snapped. Before I came to Christ, I used a lot of unhealthy and obviously sinful coping mechanisms. Unfortunately, this week, I returned to some of those.
I have lied, taken sexually promiscuous photos of myself and engaged in other sexual behaviors this week that put me to shame. I feel immensely guilty for all of this and I can't help but wonder "what was I thinking?" Why didn't I just turn to God? Why did I just lean on Him and ask Him to help me through this? Why did I rely on myself for the comfort and peace only He can give?
Sometimes, we don't have any answer other than we are sinful creatures. And God knows this. It gives me great comfort to know that He doesn't expect me to be anything other than what I am. While that doesn't give me a ticket to sin freely, it does mean that he forgives me when I do stumble.
The Lord has recently revealed to me that I lack good judgement in some circumstances, and this is something I must work on. So, pray with me, my brothers and sisters. Pray for my healing and pray that I have wisdom enough to know when I'm treading in dangerous territory.
I have never understood the stigma around openly and freely confessing sins. We were not meant to walk this life alone. God bless you all.
