The silence is killing me, when I spill my heart to god and get silence it just messes with my mind, in this moment I feel so out of control...like things are out of control...I feel like I might go crazy, like I can't win, like I might die.
I'm glad I have my friend to talk to...he's helping..I just want to cry my heart out..,the silence and zero comfort ,no answers is killing me and pushing me to the edge its making my anxiety flare masking me wonder if god is really there, what I'm doing wrong.,,there's so much weight on my soul...I feel like pray can't save me..I feel I'm hanging on my a very thin thread. I'm trying so hard to stay in this world and everything is trying so hard to push me out of it.
This is the hardest things I've ever done..,at 25 I feel so old, robbed of my youth.
If god doesn't help me I can't do this , I'm too weak, I'm trying so hard in my own strength to just stay here... I now understand why people drink and smoke...
Life is harf, even praying ,it doesn't always help...I feel no comfort.,,I feel alone,lost and on the edge and I feel like I'm being pushed and pushed to just fall off. Even as I type this I'm crying because I cant do this...I feel like ther3s no help fo4 me
I hope to God my situation gets better bc I can't do this much longer...if only god knew how hard I'm trying to hold on...
This is hard, so fkin hard.
I feel so depersonalized, so far from myself and I feel like I have to throw up all at the same time.. ...just making it through would be a miracle...I pray god doesn't give up on me..I pray he spares my life.
I'm glad I have my friend to talk to...he's helping..I just want to cry my heart out..,the silence and zero comfort ,no answers is killing me and pushing me to the edge its making my anxiety flare masking me wonder if god is really there, what I'm doing wrong.,,there's so much weight on my soul...I feel like pray can't save me..I feel I'm hanging on my a very thin thread. I'm trying so hard to stay in this world and everything is trying so hard to push me out of it.
This is the hardest things I've ever done..,at 25 I feel so old, robbed of my youth.
If god doesn't help me I can't do this , I'm too weak, I'm trying so hard in my own strength to just stay here... I now understand why people drink and smoke...
Life is harf, even praying ,it doesn't always help...I feel no comfort.,,I feel alone,lost and on the edge and I feel like I'm being pushed and pushed to just fall off. Even as I type this I'm crying because I cant do this...I feel like ther3s no help fo4 me
I hope to God my situation gets better bc I can't do this much longer...if only god knew how hard I'm trying to hold on...
This is hard, so fkin hard.
I feel so depersonalized, so far from myself and I feel like I have to throw up all at the same time.. ...just making it through would be a miracle...I pray god doesn't give up on me..I pray he spares my life.