Ravings Of An Incoherent Maniac

I am a rock, I am an island. I always identified with that song, now I know why. My deepest apologies for loving you. My God, what a curse. I should have stayed in my world of books and movies and not have reached for you. All I touch turns to dust. I am like a Midas in reverse.

Retreat! Retreat! I beat a hasty retreat, back to my books, movies, and fantasies. They are what I had before I fell in love. They are what I have, now. I don’t mind as I know life is short. It is halfway over, now. My fantasies are so precious, like jewels- priceless.

I am so selfish I wish you would stay forever with me But I know it would hurt you Yes, go, go I would rather die than cause you more pain I love you so much

Why must I destroy the one thing I want most? What is wrong with me? It is like taking a vintage Rolls Royce and deliberately ramming it into a brick wall. To keep myself from wrecking it in the future. Wreck it now, it is inevitable it will be wrecked. You do not merit a Rolls Royce...