Following God is never easy, but it should not be punishing and dreadful as if with one mis-step one would fall off. Instead, God is faithful, and in all my 17 years following him--whether I was good or bad, godly or ungodly, strong or weak, believing or doubting -- God has never forsaken me. Still, I believe I'm missing something in my walk. Though I sense Him speaking to me, I still feel so sinful and I completely lack the fruit of the spirit. I hope that through prayer, reflection and growing in knowledge of the Word, I could be transformed, and pass through the tests and trials of the world as one would walk in a garden.