Bettercallpaul's Blog

I get obsessed on certain themes. This one at the moment. As lambs were sacrificed in the Bible it seems for two reasons, food and "to keep the peace" according to our priest. When tension was high, a lamb apparently was sacrificed to ease that tension. Thank you lambs! :) Then Jesus...

Those of you who don't have children will understand. I sometimes see my own deceased father's smile in my dog. My dog has a divine purpose. To keep me and my wife grounded. Grounded in love. Grounded in knowing how to relax, chill out, stop worrying for Heaven's sake. Live in the now my...

I'll tell you about the time I signed up as a cleaner to "spring Clean" a school in 40 degrees heat of summer vacation. Our boss, assured us of the urgency and importance of our job. Actually he told us a lot of things, which often didn't hold substance, as discovered later. "Bring me all your...

Staying in a job a long time is admirable in my view. I went to the supermarket this morning. The lady who served me has been there as long I've lived here. I told her "you've been here for at least 10 years" and she replied "actually I've been here since 1988", which makes it about 30 years...

My cousin suicided about 30 years ago. He was only about 31. He was a bit of a loner but it was out of the blue. Unexpected. He worked in a bank and had been branch manager for different branches for over 5 years. They transferred him in my home state, several times. He was single, but he got...

You know the road you are about to take looks selfish. You know most will judge you harshly for it. But you feel compelled to take it. Sometimes the decision you make, makes no sense to anyone else. Short -term it looks rubbish. Long-term it looks better. Am I just running away? That might nag...

Work harder Pray harder Think harder Be nice to others harder Avoid self-pity harder Be kind to yourself harder Write harder I'm a narcissist I really should be kinder to other narcissists I know their addiction for constant attention Like heroin into their veins Forum junkies

I ****ed up big time at work. I'm looking down the barrel of being fired. I'm a useless piece of ****. I cant tell you the details. I mean even if I did, you would judge me and say I deserve to suffer. And that is my self-judgment too. I deserve to suffer. All I know is, you cant read people's...

Seems to me people find "the slippery slope argument" illogical. Not up to academic rigour. Weak. Yet I do think it applies in a lot cases. People will behave badly once they know, the cat is out of the bag, no one is watching them, there are no consequences. Marijuana can lead to taking harder...

Having 6 weeks away from CF has been good for me. I think I was getting too big for my boots. Starting to believe my own hype. My identity becoming 100% defined by the persona of "bettercallpaul". This is yet another danger of Internet forums. We are much more than who we are here. More dynamic...

Hey listen Paul no need to stall Time to pray pray all day I've been waiting for you to wake up so long I waited, I almost fell asleep But I don't need sleep So that's a joke A God joke Get it? I'm your best friend But you treat me like dirt You hardly ever call why is that Paul? what's the...