Seventy five percent of the time I'm feeling down or anything like that, it's because I feel lonely. When people ask about it and I tell them, they always say the same thing. That being single isn't that bad. The problem is, is that they can't really understand my position.
All these people have been in multiple relationships throught their life thus far. I've been in none. Being single is one thing, but when you've been single as long as I have, it turns into pure loneliness. Everyone seems to follow me so far. But I really get them with telling them what great things they have that they'd never trade for anything. I ask them how much they enjoy doing silly stuff they'd never do with anyone else. I ask them how much they enjoy doing nothing but taking a long walk during sunset. I ask them how it feels to be both minding your own business, but you both seem to always look up at each other at the same time. When people think about these things, they start to see things from my point of view. They think about those things and realize that they wouldn't give them up for the world. That they enjoy nothing more in life then these moments, and that all the hard times they might go through in their relationship is all worth it.
Another thing is self-esteem. When I look through my friends list on Facebook or whatever, I don't see anyone that hasn't been in a relationship. That hurts. That makes me feel as though I'm not good enough for anyone. One friend that always tries to tell me it's not so bad, is really good looking. I just remind her that people would go out with her based solely upon the fact that she's "pleasing to the eye". Yet you take everything good about me, put it all together, but it's still not good enough for anyone.
There's more, but I think that explains most of it. I'm too smart to fall for positive encouragement. I know they mean well, but I know what's true and what's not.
All these people have been in multiple relationships throught their life thus far. I've been in none. Being single is one thing, but when you've been single as long as I have, it turns into pure loneliness. Everyone seems to follow me so far. But I really get them with telling them what great things they have that they'd never trade for anything. I ask them how much they enjoy doing silly stuff they'd never do with anyone else. I ask them how much they enjoy doing nothing but taking a long walk during sunset. I ask them how it feels to be both minding your own business, but you both seem to always look up at each other at the same time. When people think about these things, they start to see things from my point of view. They think about those things and realize that they wouldn't give them up for the world. That they enjoy nothing more in life then these moments, and that all the hard times they might go through in their relationship is all worth it.
Another thing is self-esteem. When I look through my friends list on Facebook or whatever, I don't see anyone that hasn't been in a relationship. That hurts. That makes me feel as though I'm not good enough for anyone. One friend that always tries to tell me it's not so bad, is really good looking. I just remind her that people would go out with her based solely upon the fact that she's "pleasing to the eye". Yet you take everything good about me, put it all together, but it's still not good enough for anyone.
There's more, but I think that explains most of it. I'm too smart to fall for positive encouragement. I know they mean well, but I know what's true and what's not.
