Don't get it, Lord....
less and less understanding.
I just want You... but so much in the way.. and I can't even cope with the day-to-day, never mind the spiritual.
And yet, it all flows from there... from You..
soon, Lord? please
Father... I am sorry. And now... now that I have yet again torn my heart out and can't think for the pain.... now I can see what I have done... I don't know whether there is a way out.
I love You... and I have, eventually , obeyed You.
But I can't go on.... I don't have the emotional strength...
Lord... I did what you said.. I know it took me a long time.. and You know how sorry I am for that .
But why the complications? Why there?
I can't be open anymore... knowing that what I write could cause hurt. But not writing it is hurting me... and I honestly don't know what You want of me...
Why do I run back here whenever I am hurt.... I don't know if it's right, Lord, to use this as a refuge from 'real life'...
But I need the release of writing... and I need somewhere to talk to You this way...
Lord.. You know what I am.... You know my heart... please help. I can't cope with...
Just wanted to make a start... I don't really understand how this works.. or whether I can combine this with my old blog.....
It seems appropriate to have a new star here, as I try once again to make a new start in God.
Everything has been a mess... and some things still are. But I have, at...