Had a pretty bad day today. I was doing okay. I did good in my first class. Then during the break between classes I had some very negative thoughts about God.
I believe I was punished for these thoughts. I got it into my head that I have to bow down for 244 seconds before a church or else I will go to hell. Then on the way home I got it into my head that I have to bow down and worship a certain church 244 times or else I will go to hell. The devil voice in my head has been laughing a whole lot because of this. He says I have to go to a certain church and bow down 244 times on the stone steps in front of it. I really don't want to do it, though, because I feel really awkward about it.
I really wish I didn't get these negative thoughts about God. I have some hatred of God in my heart. I have a bad relationship with God.
Well, tomorrow I may go through with it and worship that specific church 244 times. The devil voice keeps telling me that is the only way out. He says I will do badly in school until I do it. I'm having a hard time concentrating on anything else while he keeps telling me to worship this church.
Thank you to DearGlow for helping me realize that I don't need to worship the church.
I believe I was punished for these thoughts. I got it into my head that I have to bow down for 244 seconds before a church or else I will go to hell. Then on the way home I got it into my head that I have to bow down and worship a certain church 244 times or else I will go to hell. The devil voice in my head has been laughing a whole lot because of this. He says I have to go to a certain church and bow down 244 times on the stone steps in front of it. I really don't want to do it, though, because I feel really awkward about it.
I really wish I didn't get these negative thoughts about God. I have some hatred of God in my heart. I have a bad relationship with God.
Well, tomorrow I may go through with it and worship that specific church 244 times. The devil voice keeps telling me that is the only way out. He says I will do badly in school until I do it. I'm having a hard time concentrating on anything else while he keeps telling me to worship this church.
Thank you to DearGlow for helping me realize that I don't need to worship the church.
