Well, I went to class today and that went well, sort of. I got some work done. My professor helped me with the dialogue for the game I'm making. After school I've been working on the script for my game.
Faith-wise I've been feeling together. I gave a lot to the poor today, which may have been a mistake. But it makes me feel good so I do it. There was one poor guy that I felt really sorry for. He asked for some money, but I didn't have any so I said I could buy him some food. He said he already ate, so I didn't buy him any. Well, I went forward and went to Wallgreens to get some cash back. I got $5 and went back to find him but he was gone. So I gave the $5 to a homeless man who was crippled and hauling a huge bag of recyclables with him. Then when I was going home I met that same homeless man from before. I had wanted to give him the $5 but I couldn't find him, so I just wished him good day and went home.
I feel like I probably should have backtracked to Wallgreens and get another $5 for him, but I decided against it because I just wanted to get home. I probably shouldn't give so much to the poor anyway. I really need to leave some money for myself.
Today was a better day all in all. I'm still hearing voices but they haven't bothered me as much today. The voices were telling me to quit school again today, but I keep telling them I don't want to quit. I really don't like quitting on things these days. Maybe it's because I've quit due to the voices before and it made me feel like a failure. I really hope that God doesn't hate me. The devil voice always tells me that my suffering is "a part of God's plan." He loves telling me that God has an awful plan for me.
I listened to a lot of Christian music once I got home from school. It definitely comforted me.
I'm still worried. Like I said, the voices keep telling me to quit school. I'm trying not to listen though.
Anyway, thanks for reading.
Faith-wise I've been feeling together. I gave a lot to the poor today, which may have been a mistake. But it makes me feel good so I do it. There was one poor guy that I felt really sorry for. He asked for some money, but I didn't have any so I said I could buy him some food. He said he already ate, so I didn't buy him any. Well, I went forward and went to Wallgreens to get some cash back. I got $5 and went back to find him but he was gone. So I gave the $5 to a homeless man who was crippled and hauling a huge bag of recyclables with him. Then when I was going home I met that same homeless man from before. I had wanted to give him the $5 but I couldn't find him, so I just wished him good day and went home.
I feel like I probably should have backtracked to Wallgreens and get another $5 for him, but I decided against it because I just wanted to get home. I probably shouldn't give so much to the poor anyway. I really need to leave some money for myself.
Today was a better day all in all. I'm still hearing voices but they haven't bothered me as much today. The voices were telling me to quit school again today, but I keep telling them I don't want to quit. I really don't like quitting on things these days. Maybe it's because I've quit due to the voices before and it made me feel like a failure. I really hope that God doesn't hate me. The devil voice always tells me that my suffering is "a part of God's plan." He loves telling me that God has an awful plan for me.
I listened to a lot of Christian music once I got home from school. It definitely comforted me.
I'm still worried. Like I said, the voices keep telling me to quit school. I'm trying not to listen though.
Anyway, thanks for reading.
