I really had a bad day today (sort of). I was worried about my grade in a class so I had another professor talk to that specific professor. I got a very positive and helpful message from the professor of that class as a result. However, I'm worried that I will do worse in that class now that I bugged that professor about my grade.
So I really lost my head. I was in such a rage because of this. I started yelling in anger.
My parents talked to me and helped me to calm down. I'm still really upset with myself though. I'm worried that I ruined my grade by talking to that professor. I feel like such an idiot. I plan on talking to the professor tomorrow and asking if I lowered my grade by having another professor talk with him. Hopefully he'll just say that it didn't really matter.
The voices really made me upset today. They knew that I was struggling and they laughed and laughed at me. They love it when I'm feeling bad or upset. They keep telling me to quit college or else suffer the consequences. I'm really afraid I will be buried alive if I don't quit. I really don't want to quit though. I've been working hard all semester and I would feel really bad if I quit right at the end.
I'm feeling a bit better now. I got some work done on the game I'm making. I worked on putting portraits of the characters in the game during dialogue that happens. We recorded the dialogue for the game on Tuesday. On Friday we will put the dialogue into the game.
I keep feeling that my sins are too horrible. I talked to my dad about some of my worst sins and he said he didn't think I was guilty. That's why I worry that I'm going to be buried alive. I keep feeling like my sins are too awful. The devil voice keeps telling me that it is all part of a divine plan that I should be buried alive.
Thanks to everyone who is reading my blogs. The comments and support help a lot. I need to hear positive things to counteract all of the negative things the voices tell me all day long.
So I really lost my head. I was in such a rage because of this. I started yelling in anger.
My parents talked to me and helped me to calm down. I'm still really upset with myself though. I'm worried that I ruined my grade by talking to that professor. I feel like such an idiot. I plan on talking to the professor tomorrow and asking if I lowered my grade by having another professor talk with him. Hopefully he'll just say that it didn't really matter.
The voices really made me upset today. They knew that I was struggling and they laughed and laughed at me. They love it when I'm feeling bad or upset. They keep telling me to quit college or else suffer the consequences. I'm really afraid I will be buried alive if I don't quit. I really don't want to quit though. I've been working hard all semester and I would feel really bad if I quit right at the end.
I'm feeling a bit better now. I got some work done on the game I'm making. I worked on putting portraits of the characters in the game during dialogue that happens. We recorded the dialogue for the game on Tuesday. On Friday we will put the dialogue into the game.
I keep feeling that my sins are too horrible. I talked to my dad about some of my worst sins and he said he didn't think I was guilty. That's why I worry that I'm going to be buried alive. I keep feeling like my sins are too awful. The devil voice keeps telling me that it is all part of a divine plan that I should be buried alive.
Thanks to everyone who is reading my blogs. The comments and support help a lot. I need to hear positive things to counteract all of the negative things the voices tell me all day long.
