I went to church today, for the first time in maybe over a year. It was really nice. I will probably go back, if I have the chance. Everyone was warm and inviting.
I kept hearing the voices all throughout the service though, which made me feel bad. The devil voice kept telling me to do terrible things all throughout the service.
I wish I could feel Jesus in my heart. I feel like I am a vessel for the devil though.
Tonight I'm going with my family to a really nice restaurant. Hopefully we will have a good time. We always really enjoy going to this restaurant.
God answered one of my prayers today, so that felt good. I was praying all throughout church and then my prayers were answered right after church. The nice voice in my head says "If God hates you so much, why does he answer so many of your prayers?" God does answer my prayers a lot. I hope he doesn't hate me.
For some reason I have this morbid fear of Jesus putting me in a coffin forever if I get a C in college. I know it doesn't make much sense, but I can't shake this fear. The voices in my head keep telling me to quit, or else something terrible will happen.
I kept hearing the voices all throughout the service though, which made me feel bad. The devil voice kept telling me to do terrible things all throughout the service.
I wish I could feel Jesus in my heart. I feel like I am a vessel for the devil though.
Tonight I'm going with my family to a really nice restaurant. Hopefully we will have a good time. We always really enjoy going to this restaurant.
God answered one of my prayers today, so that felt good. I was praying all throughout church and then my prayers were answered right after church. The nice voice in my head says "If God hates you so much, why does he answer so many of your prayers?" God does answer my prayers a lot. I hope he doesn't hate me.
For some reason I have this morbid fear of Jesus putting me in a coffin forever if I get a C in college. I know it doesn't make much sense, but I can't shake this fear. The voices in my head keep telling me to quit, or else something terrible will happen.
