Having another bad day. I guess I got some work done at school. Now I'm having problems getting work done at home.
The voices keep telling me to go to a certain church and bow down before it 244 times. I really don't want to, but they keep insisting. They make it seem like everything in my life will go wrong until I do it. The good voice keeps saying, "Please just do it for me. Just do it ASAP. I don't want to go to hell."
I really don't know what to do. I'm having technical problems with my computer now. I feel like it's a direct result of not worshiping the church. I really feel like I will go to hell soon because I'm not going to do well in college. The voices say I will go to hell if I get a C. They keep telling me to quit over and over again, or worship the church.
If only I didn't have these voices I could just live my life like an ordinary person. I feel like it's a punishment from God. Everyone tells me, "You have an illness. It's not your fault." I feel like it is my fault though. The devil voice constantly reminds me of my sins.
Anyway, I don't know what to do. I worry that if people see me bowing down in front of the church 244 times they might think it's really wierd. But the voices keep telling me to do it. I just don't know what to do.
I'm feeling a little better now because I was able to get some work done at home. It's very stressful because I'm trying to finish off a game in school and we only have a couple more weeks to finish things off. It's crunch time! I keep getting into fights with my professor and my classmates because I'm doing too much work. They don't like me going ahead and doing all the work. Or at least they disagree with the way I'm doing things.
Sorry I'm so negative all the time. The voices keep bothering me. I have a hard time shutting them out.
The voices keep telling me to go to a certain church and bow down before it 244 times. I really don't want to, but they keep insisting. They make it seem like everything in my life will go wrong until I do it. The good voice keeps saying, "Please just do it for me. Just do it ASAP. I don't want to go to hell."
I really don't know what to do. I'm having technical problems with my computer now. I feel like it's a direct result of not worshiping the church. I really feel like I will go to hell soon because I'm not going to do well in college. The voices say I will go to hell if I get a C. They keep telling me to quit over and over again, or worship the church.
If only I didn't have these voices I could just live my life like an ordinary person. I feel like it's a punishment from God. Everyone tells me, "You have an illness. It's not your fault." I feel like it is my fault though. The devil voice constantly reminds me of my sins.
Anyway, I don't know what to do. I worry that if people see me bowing down in front of the church 244 times they might think it's really wierd. But the voices keep telling me to do it. I just don't know what to do.
I'm feeling a little better now because I was able to get some work done at home. It's very stressful because I'm trying to finish off a game in school and we only have a couple more weeks to finish things off. It's crunch time! I keep getting into fights with my professor and my classmates because I'm doing too much work. They don't like me going ahead and doing all the work. Or at least they disagree with the way I'm doing things.
Sorry I'm so negative all the time. The voices keep bothering me. I have a hard time shutting them out.
