(Dr. Who was not good tonight 
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So C is making out that they (including M2 ?) are "concerned" or something that I might be getting involved/whatever with J.
Now is it really that? I think part is, and part is because they have some "differences" w J.
I was trying to get it out of C if there was something specific they were concerned about. But she was something like "just be careful" implying that I should stay away from her- for my own good.
Then C was bothered that J complained some stuff about church to her sister.
And then...ok I knew the father of the baby- the nephew was locked up for something...then it comes out it was because SHE J, had him arrested because when he got drunk he did something. C was telling me it's not good for him to drink, because then that makes him violent. C said he broke some of J's windows- but it seems there must be more to it than that.
So I guess there is a bunch of bad blood going around. I would have hoped C could put her personal feeings aside as a Christian, and see just as she likes to reach out to hurting people, to evangelize etc. I would've hoped she could see why I am getting myself into this (if it is that)...just as she often has done herself. 2ndly though I do feel attached to that family and have some loyalty to them- I can't let their things gets in the way of my feelings and belief about what God wants me to do.
3rd-Let's be honest, it doesn't seem J has been lving much differenthan they did/do...same kinds of issues/ problems.
I said that is part of the reason I'd like to hang out with & get to know her is she's gone through a lot of things I have, including like stuff w/ her mom.
Think C didn't connect with that point.
Sooo I hope M2 & C and even M1 & M3 don't hold it against me if I have an interest in J, and if I spend time with her & become friends.
And now I am especially hoping this isn't THE reason J has been holding back or hesitant of whatever with me ( and even losing trust of me) because I'm connected w/ friends w these people she's had problems w/ who don't like her right now.
ug, life....women......Lord help us.
So now I'm praying about this (all the while my heart is twisting)
I think my stragey is going to be straightforward- since she seems that kind of person herself, I mean one who lays it all out there (or appears to)...unless that family knows something about J's methods of operation, that I don't know of yet.
Eeks it may be time for me to get "goofey". I don't say that in a calculated way, but I sense that's whats coming and needed.
Thankfully othertimes when I felt God to lead me that way, it had been received- by MOST. I mean I could have been utterly cut down, many times but God put forth his favor (oh but how come I don't find such favor with 1 special person?).
Maybe it's time once again to put myself on the line and share about what I believe God is doing & wants to do.
)So C is making out that they (including M2 ?) are "concerned" or something that I might be getting involved/whatever with J.
Now is it really that? I think part is, and part is because they have some "differences" w J.
I was trying to get it out of C if there was something specific they were concerned about. But she was something like "just be careful" implying that I should stay away from her- for my own good.
Then C was bothered that J complained some stuff about church to her sister.
And then...ok I knew the father of the baby- the nephew was locked up for something...then it comes out it was because SHE J, had him arrested because when he got drunk he did something. C was telling me it's not good for him to drink, because then that makes him violent. C said he broke some of J's windows- but it seems there must be more to it than that.
So I guess there is a bunch of bad blood going around. I would have hoped C could put her personal feeings aside as a Christian, and see just as she likes to reach out to hurting people, to evangelize etc. I would've hoped she could see why I am getting myself into this (if it is that)...just as she often has done herself. 2ndly though I do feel attached to that family and have some loyalty to them- I can't let their things gets in the way of my feelings and belief about what God wants me to do.
3rd-Let's be honest, it doesn't seem J has been lving much differenthan they did/do...same kinds of issues/ problems.
I said that is part of the reason I'd like to hang out with & get to know her is she's gone through a lot of things I have, including like stuff w/ her mom.
Think C didn't connect with that point.
Sooo I hope M2 & C and even M1 & M3 don't hold it against me if I have an interest in J, and if I spend time with her & become friends.
And now I am especially hoping this isn't THE reason J has been holding back or hesitant of whatever with me ( and even losing trust of me) because I'm connected w/ friends w these people she's had problems w/ who don't like her right now.
ug, life....women......Lord help us.
So now I'm praying about this (all the while my heart is twisting)
I think my stragey is going to be straightforward- since she seems that kind of person herself, I mean one who lays it all out there (or appears to)...unless that family knows something about J's methods of operation, that I don't know of yet.
Eeks it may be time for me to get "goofey". I don't say that in a calculated way, but I sense that's whats coming and needed.
Thankfully othertimes when I felt God to lead me that way, it had been received- by MOST. I mean I could have been utterly cut down, many times but God put forth his favor (oh but how come I don't find such favor with 1 special person?).
Maybe it's time once again to put myself on the line and share about what I believe God is doing & wants to do.
